In the end, Jesline Tan left the office at 1835, marking the end of her 2 months day in Recruit Express. I never knew I would be so emotionally bonded to the people there. Tears were brought close to my eyes when I was about to leave, but being the prideful me; I fought back hard, not allowing my tears to drop. This work has stressed me freak when I just started off. Those few days of sleepless nights, worrying about the number of resumes sent the next day as well as the number of temp out I have to achieve were disgusting.

The idea of quitting sets in slowly. Those ideas like “I should have just settled on an easier and slacker job during this school vacation.”, “Why am I doing so many things when the pay is not high?” and “Why am I making things difficult for myself?” increased my urge of quitting. But everything came to an end after a good talk to Audris. I was impressed by her, actually. All those negative thoughts I had in mind back then became so positive to her instead. She said that I’m a high achiever; I set a high standard for myself, that’s why I’m feeling so stressed up. I can do better if I can take things easy. Maybe she has brainwashed me.. Or maybe what she said is true as well.

In the end, I’ve chosen to not give up for the fear that I’ll give things up easily when I met with an obstacle next time round. I should treat this as a challenge and so long as I tried my best. I would never regret. Besides, if i dun try.. then I wouldn’t known whether this job is cut up for me. I pressed on and hmmm, I can’t really say I have succeeded but at least I persevere to the end. I have learnt a lot a lot of things from Audris.. And I really want to thank her for everything. There was never once that she gave up on me. She gave in to me when I was feeling frustrated and when I was giving the ‘black face’. Somehow, she knows me in and out. (freak scary, right?!)

All in all, just wanna say THANK YOU to her for everything. Who knows.. I might be joining her team when I graduated in 2 years time. But then.. all these will only happen in the future and hah.. of cos, it is still full of uncertainty..