In the end, Jesline Tan left the office at 1835, marking the end of her 2 months day in Recruit Express. I never knew I would be so emotionally bonded to the people there. Tears were brought close to my eyes when I was about to leave, but being the prideful me; I fought back hard, not allowing my tears to drop. This work has stressed me freak when I just started off. Those few days of sleepless nights, worrying about the number of resumes sent the next day as well as the number of temp out I have to achieve were disgusting.

The idea of quitting sets in slowly. Those ideas like “I should have just settled on an easier and slacker job during this school vacation.”, “Why am I doing so many things when the pay is not high?” and “Why am I making things difficult for myself?” increased my urge of quitting. But everything came to an end after a good talk to Audris. I was impressed by her, actually. All those negative thoughts I had in mind back then became so positive to her instead. She said that I’m a high achiever; I set a high standard for myself, that’s why I’m feeling so stressed up. I can do better if I can take things easy. Maybe she has brainwashed me.. Or maybe what she said is true as well.

In the end, I’ve chosen to not give up for the fear that I’ll give things up easily when I met with an obstacle next time round. I should treat this as a challenge and so long as I tried my best. I would never regret. Besides, if i dun try.. then I wouldn’t known whether this job is cut up for me. I pressed on and hmmm, I can’t really say I have succeeded but at least I persevere to the end. I have learnt a lot a lot of things from Audris.. And I really want to thank her for everything. There was never once that she gave up on me. She gave in to me when I was feeling frustrated and when I was giving the ‘black face’. Somehow, she knows me in and out. (freak scary, right?!)

All in all, just wanna say THANK YOU to her for everything. Who knows.. I might be joining her team when I graduated in 2 years time. But then.. all these will only happen in the future and hah.. of cos, it is still full of uncertainty..

Lunch time now and I'm supposed to be enjoying my lunch with my colleagues instead of blogging here and having a packet of roasted duck rice in front of me. I looked so pathetic now lo. Having lunch alone in the office in which the rest (having lunch at 1230) are working now. Today wasnt as smooth sailing and I'm beginning to feel restless alr, or rather the feeling has been lingering since the start of this week. I'm even wearing specs for work today! (realised how slack I am today). Seriously, I dun mind earning less, I just want to slack through my hols until the school term starts. Haiz... I'm leading a sad life now. I dread to work everyday. Joleen is leaving sooooooon, like tmr?? And that means that i would the one only standing among the old tempers. I want to leave also, but that is provided that Audris is willing to let me go. I understand that she needs my help at this point of time, especially when it is nearing to the end of the month. Audris has always been good to me, and i ought to stay. But the motivation to work is no longer there, how on earth am I supposed to survive in the office for the next 2 weeks??

As for now, the only motivation for me to work is to earn money and buy my dreammmm phone. BUT then again, I can well afford it if I leave early as well.. Haiz.. **confused mind**

There’s nothing much of an updates on my life since it is hovering around with netball and work. National league has come to an end after the victory against Bedok CSC. The game hasn’t been easy for us since it was played under the hot sun. It has been a long time since I played under the hot sun. and the last time I had training in the afternoon?? Hmmm.. I supposed it was one year back when I was training under the NUS IVP team. Hah... So one imagine how draggy I felt when I was told that the game was in the afternoon. Everyone was drained off even in the mid of the game but understanding that it’s a game that we cant afford to lose, everyone fought hard and this eventually lead to our victory. In case my dear friends and my dear boy were wondering, I wasn’t really burned that day, just felt really dehydrated. Neither did the sun inflict any harm (darkness) to my skin. It was a miracle, I supposed. So now, I’m praying hard that the sun would take pity on me when we visit chek jawa on Tue. Yes, I’m looking forward for the fun, especially with the uni gang and no, I’m not anticipating the sun. Although I’m a sport person and although I’m dark skinned, it doesn’t mean that I love the sun and the beach. So dun be shocked the next time when I say.. I don’t like the sun and I’m not a beach go-er. I love indoor game and I love the moon more. =)

Work has been alright so far. But working in town is definitely not a good thing. Great Singapore Sales, Mid Season sales, End season sales and so on seemed to be never ending. The tempting is always there, to go into the stores and shop. And naturally shopping would mean spending. Hahaha.. I supposed I’m rather prepared for school term already. =) –smug- Pampering myself at times would only give me more motivation to work harder!! Yeah. So now I need to work harder by sending more people to work. Only in this way, I would have more money to spend. Yay!! Jia you Jia you..

I will miss my colleagues when I leave the organization this month. I have really learnt a lot from them this holidays and though stressful, I must admit.. This is the most fulfilling and memorable holiday/ temporary job that I ever had. Thanks a lot, people.. =)

Now I’m missing my dear boy… … I’m anticipating for my gifts as well.. =D