You Are 40% Normal

While some of your behavior is quite normal... Other things you do are downright strange You've got a little of your freak going on But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How can I ever have a little freak in me when I'm 100% normal in the first place? So, there is only one conclusion that can be drawn and that is the test is totally not reliable!! I'm normal!! and I insist so!

Anyway, the result was out today. Boo~ I have disappointing grades and all of them failed my expectation. I hate it when people make comparison. I have better grades than u doesn't mean that I can't sulk about it and have to make do with it when in the first place it wasn't what I expected. You have your expectation and so do I. So stop complaining and start working hard when the next semester starts if you ever wants to see your caps being pulled up.

I guess it need to work doubly hard for next semester as well. Anyway, I think i have made up my mind and that is I'm going to give it a miss. I promise, I'll sit at the sideline to cheer for you. =)

I'm free from the nagging from my mum AT LAST cos I have found a job. I can officially watch tv in the living room after dinner without having to hide in the room with my elder brother. All the stressful life at home is gone. yes! =) Anyway, I'm quite surprised that I'm shortlisted for this admin job since I have 0 experience for that plus I know that it's not easy to find a job nowadays and many friends of mine are still jobless. So, I'm considered lucky as to say. Haha, maybe cos I have positive karma, that's why. Hahaha..

I thought ytd was a fulfilling day for me, or at least I'm fully occupied for the whole day rather than slacking at home, doing nothing. Mi and Tong went over to Xiu yan's place in the morning to bake cookies and brownie. Haha.. Some hiccups during the process of baking but the end products are not too bad, I supposed. Although, some of our friends commented that the cornflake cookies are a bit hard, overall the taste wasn't that bad. So the conclusion is the cookies and brownie making is a success! Shall practice more often, ermm.. anyone wants to be my guinea pig? heehee..

After the baking, I went over to Chow House at Tanjong Pagar for interview. It's a sales job, selling some skincare products that will make the skin glow naturally. I was shortlisted immediately and so, undergone some training after that, and I'm supposed to start work the next day. Basic pay is $1000 per month and the commission is $2 per box. $300 cash will be rewarded if there is no lateness during the course of 1 month promotion. Monetary wise is attractive but having to stand for that 9 hours is really not an easy chore. Anyway, everything has been settled so I left for training in Kallang. On my way to KNC, I received a call from Samantha from recruit express saying that I'm shortlisted for the admin work in YISHUN. Attractive location. But of course, the pay for admin work can never be as high as that of sales job. But it's at YISHUN leh.. It's just 2 stops away from my home and working hours is from 8am to 5.30pm. 5 days work week! That means that I would not have to compromise my trainings and games for the job. Great! plus I can still go out shopping, chiong-ing and mahjonging during the weekend. Hahaha.. No way that I'm going to give it a miss man. Yes, I took up the job immediately. So, I called back to the person in charge for the sales job and rejected the job. Kind of irresponsible of me, I know. But since, I have yet to sign the contract with them would mean that I still have the deciding power. Ok, everything settled. Starting work on Mon for the admin work.

First item on the to-buy list: a 4 inch high heels

Anyway, everyone is very off during the training. Most of the passes are bad, the drive is not there and the timing is just off. I'm not excluded, of cos. But I guess, if everyone was to train up on the stamina, everything will be better. So ppl, strive hard during this period ba! -jiayou-

My colourgenics profile..

You are trying to establish yourself and make an impact despite the fact that everything around you seems to be against you - putting up barriers, but don't be unduly concerned: you have the right ideas and come what may, they will soon be manifested and appreciated.

I'm always concerned about establishing myself in a positive way when people evaluate about me so I thought it doesn't really matter if everything around me is against me or going in my way.

You are lazy - you dream of a peaceful, calm, uncluttered and uncomplicated life. Your ideal would be to share a permanent base with some person or persons who would be able to demonstrate on-going love, peace and security.

I supposed, lazy is too much of a negative word to be used. And dreaming of peaceful, calm, uncluttered and uncomplicated life shouldn't associate one as being lazy. Anyway, calm and uncomplicated life does not sound appealing to me. Instead, I would hope that my life is more unpredictable and full of surprises. Of course, I would want to share a common base with the person so that there wouldn't be any unnecessary clash at any time and the person being able to demonstrate on-going love, peace and security is a must. Who doesn't pin for that?

You honestly believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, but there seems to be no one around to give you the necessary reassurance and encouragement. You are egocentric. You believe that you are always 'right' - well maybe you are but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.

I do have friends around me to give me the necessary assurance and encouragement but unfortunately, that wasn't what I really wanted. I yearned for praise and compliments, especially at work. Yes, I am egocentric and I thought that is the main characteristic of being a leo. It's true that I always believe that I'm right, but over the years of having to do project works and stuffs, I have learnt to take objections and suggestions for my ideas for I know that this is one of growing processes to master so as to become a leader.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

Indeed, I have yet to find a solution for the situation I am currently in. But I'm truly aware of my capability and I believed, I would be able to break out of the barriers that I stupidly self create.

You are trying to build up your own position and you resist all external influences. You insist that you are your own person and you will not tolerate any outside interference. Decisive and proud, you are true managerial material.

It's still early to make any conclusion.

First, I wish all mothers a Happy Mothers’ Day.

Unfortunately, the queen in my home is not in a good mood recently, let alone to celebrate mothers’ day. And when she is not happy, that’s when all the tragic will start happening at home. Minor includes the not-so-tasty meals that she cooked and major includes all the endless nagging. As a lot of people would have known, I really hate it when someone nags at me, just like how the then netball teacher in charge in ajc did. Arrrrgh.. So staying at home lately has been torturous. All blame to my elder brother for not looking for a job actively ever since he has ORD. and I was being implicated as well. I thought I could have a good rest at home after all the mugging during the stressful exam period. But haiz.. it’s equally stressful now. Booo.. Luckily, I have all the mahjong- kakis, my teammates to accompany me these days. So basically, I’m out in late morning and only returning home at 11 plus. She would have slept by then. Phew~

This is the list of activities for the week (v. simplified):
Mon --- Movie watching + tuition at night
Tue --- Job searching + tuition at night
Wed--- Game watching and training at night
Thurs --- Stayed at home b’cos of all the muscle aches
Fri--- Out shopping
Sat—Mahjong-ing
Sun—Mothers’ Day, so have to give her the face and stay at home

Seriously, I think I need to start looking for a job actively as my to-buy list has been out. I need some inputs before the outputs, if not; I think my mum is going to kill me. My room is still not tidied up as well; anymore inputs will get on her nerves and trigger the nags. I don’t wish to die young.

Anyway, my sense of direction is really bad. Singapore is a small country and yet I can lose my way for so many times. How smart! And thanks Chun di for saying that I’m boosting the economy by spending more on taxi-fare. -_-“ I realized I’m losing direction in my life as well. I’ve chosen the path, and as I moved along, the things that happened seemed not to be what I expected. I need a guide somehow, a street directory for my life. I don’t want to be left alone with uncertainty. What I needed most is a confirmation. I supposed, there is a time limit for everything. I'll walk back if it doesn't work.

I read yesterday’s news just now. 2 NSFs were killed when a jet plane crashed into their stores in Taiwan. I was quite taken aback when I saw one of the photos of the 2 decreased and I sms-ed Jasmine immediately to confirm his identity. And yes, he was the councilor back in AJC. He came down in most of our netball games during the A div to support us and occasionally, I’ll just pop over to chat with him. He shouldn’t have died so young. 19 year old is just too young for everything. He has yet to enjoy his life to the fullest and there are so many things left unaccomplished. From what I have collected from Jasmine, the funeral yesterday was very sad, esp. his mum. The pain and sorrow was understandable. She had lost a son just like that. Felt so sorry for them. That really tells us how fragile life is and we should cherish everything and everyone around us.

Bok has left the club officially. This time for good. Anything that happened to the club now is none of his business. I thought I would be happy that he is gone as all the scoldings and nonsense from him will be gone as well. But apparently, I'm not. As much as I don't like him, the tiny bit of respect for him is always there. He is the one who taught me how to play netball. He is the one who brought me into the netball field. And I will never forget that. But this time round, his action really disgusted me and that tiny bit of respect is gone. He dumped the team when we needed him the most. This time round, the first team is playing in Div 1. DIV 1!! It's going to be a tough league this year. He shouldn't have brought us to win the champion in div 2 last year if he's going to leave just like that. Hah, how responsible and considerate of him. Chun di has taken over the club. She must be feeling damn stress now with so many things bombarding her at the same time. The A division is still ongoing, the ite netball team needs her as the POL-ITE games are coming, extremes trainings needs her and we are sending not 1 but 2 teams for this national league with the second team in div 3. Hope she is coping well. Poor thing. All thanks to some responsible people. I know she is vexed, and I promise I won't give her any problems for the time being. Yes, that means I will stop requesting to go down to the second team. I'll be good and stay in the first team.

Anyway, I went down for aj training after mahjong session in tong's place. I bet the sun really love me a lot. The past few days have been drizzling at around 4 plus. But on friday, knowing that I'll be training outdoor, the sun came out. arrrrgh.. I love the warmth that it provides but at the same time, I hate the impact it left on me. So, I'm having a love-hate relationship with the sun. Booo..

Was quite upset about something that happened during the trainings. I know those words weren't intentional, but I'm still quite bothered by it. I guess I'll just need to train up on my stamina (top priority) and brush up my skill.

Stats paper at 5 today. The time now is 12.30pm. 3hrs more to go before I leave house for the paper. The sky has turned dark and it's going to rain soon. Hope the rain will stop by the time i leave house so I dont have to bring umbrella. lazy me. Woke up early today at 9 plus, cos I think I turned in early at 1 plus ytd. Consider that as early since I have sleeping at 3+am these days. As you see, I have nothing much to blog and I blogging for the sake of passing time. haha.. no life and so no story to tell.

anyway, yesterday game was disappointing. Could have won but lost. AJC 25-TJC 34 It's really a pity, for I have seen the team played a much better game as compared to ytd. We were at the sideline shouting, until our voice turned hoarse. I thought they will give a good fight and showed me what the team is capable of. I thought it was a game that they wanted to win badly, but their play didnt prove so. I thought ytd was the best time to showcase the result of their tedious and countless trainings over the past 6 or more months, but it wasnt seen. Maybe it's the stress, maybe like what coach has said, it was the psychological side of them that wasnt tuned up. I know that the umpiring was off ytd, and that contributed partly to the lost. But I thought that was expected and they should be prepared for it for some reasons. Frustration is bound to have and I can fully understand that. But I feel that the team was a bit too quiet ytd and more encouragement should be given to one another.

Good thing is, the team never gave up and continue to fight hard throughout the last quarter. Last quarter was the best of the 4 quarter. The defence is there, everyone is working hard, pressing on them. I'm sure they felt the pressure given the miss passes they had consecutively. good job for that! And that is the never-give-up spirit I hope you gals will carry that for the rest of the game. And I do wish to comment that Mel has indeed played well yesterday. The tips, the rebounds were really good. But please huh, aim before u shoot. And if u are reading this: I feel like strangling you when u are taking those shots ytd! haha.. but overall good job lah. Last point to note, I know it's going to be tough ahead, the teams that u gals are going to meet will be stronger than before but I believe so long as u people stay united and fight hard, it's still possible for u gals to make it to the top 4. Don't let the hard work and the countless rounds of run that you all have made go down the drain. Show them, what aj netball team is capable of ba!! -jiayou- always always remember, have faith in yourself and the coach as well.. =)

anyway ah, the aj supporters really cannot make it one. Come down all the way from aj which is at amk to kallang to support their friends and YET they didn't cheer at all. They are doing silent cheers i think. The few of us were like cheering louder than them la.. walau.. No wonder outsiders kept saying that ajc is a mugger school and I agree TOTALLY. And that made me so pissed off and yes, i scolded them. Image was spoilt once again. But it's ok, since I have already left the school.

Booo.. 30 minutes have passed. 2.5 hrs more to rot before I leave the house. OK, I need to get cite up for my paper.. I LOVE STATS!!