arrrrrgh... terrible day todae... got sucha terrible cramp.. really feel like dying.. suddenly like no strength then both my hands and feet start turnin cold.. after which i start bursting into cold sweat.. and after a while like got blackout.. luckily nv faint or fell down... haiz.. it has been a while since i experience this le.. and wil nv forget tat day man.. i had the same old experience during my chem prelim exam in which i had to change my exam venue from hall to the block 10 classroom cos i cant take the cold in the hall then.. and as expected.. i flung my chem prelim then... but oh well, tat was the past ting alr....
anyw, i tink my body like veri weak lidat... everytime when i get up from the sofa, i will feel veri dizzy and after which my vision wil start to blur.. and i wil need to hold onto smtin just to prevent myself from fallin.. and just last week, the same ting occurred when i tried to open the door for my dad.. in which i dunnno how accidentally, i knocked my head on the door.. and by the time i gained conscious, i'm alr on the floor and yes, there is a 'baluku' on my forehead.. haha.. and my mum got so terrified and say wan to buy those 'yang ming jiu' for mi to drink.. silly her... she even said that she is goin to stuff mi with tonics everydae.. haha.. juz wonderin how true it is goin to be.. haha.. but anyw, i tink i should go and visit a doc and see wat's really wrong with mi.. hope everytin turns out to be fine... but i tink i'm juz not gettin enough nutrients tat i should hav ba....

i'm going to be jobless sooon.. sianz... anyone got lobang, plss feel free to contact me. if not chun di, haha.. will see mi every training.. anyw, it's her blessin lo.. bleah.... startin from tml.. 4 continuous day of mornin shift, haiyo.... die le lo..

oooooo.. so shagged after doing a jump shift.. hate it when i dun hav enough slp... vision becum blur and the fact tat i keep yawnin.. did an afternoon shift ytd til 11pm and as usual took 858 home.. the bus trip is abt an hr, k.. so, i ended up reachin home at 12.15 and when i settled down and stuffs... it's alr 12.45am.. in which i'm left with 4 hrs of slp cos i had to wake up at 4.50 for work... sianz rite... haiz, anyw, my contract is ending soon.. which means tat i'm goin to be jobless again... btw, hav been wantin to blog these few days as many tings had happened........

11/3(saturday)
GREAT DISAPPOINTED tat day!!! took a day off tat day specially to go for the u19s selection.. onli realised tat i dun qualified for the selection since i'm alr out of the sch.. wat??!! there goes my chance, man... i cant blame them since they are goin to send this team to Australia to play for a u18 carnival and of cos, they wun choose someone in the squad that cannot play for the carnival.. quite true.. but i was so disappointed... anyw, they did ask mi to try for the u21s selection.. but i decided to withdraw in the end cos firstly, i wasnt keen and secondly, i feel tat i'm stil not up to the standard yet... guess no one can really understand how disappointed i felt..
ard june last yr, i was invited to play for the u19s squad since there is the ASEAN sch tingie goin on.. tat was a golden chance rite.. haha..and i stupidly turned them down cos i'm worried tat i may not be able to cope with my 'A' lvl... and once again, stupidly tink tat i can get into the team again this yr since i'm stil u19... rite now, al these chances are over.. forever over... wat else can i do except for laffin at how stupid i am?? i no longer find the motivation to play well on court..i dun see any purpose of mi to train up my stamina to last for a game.. i no longer hav a goal in mind for netball.. al the dreams are gone.. so wat if i hav the skills, so wat if i hav the experience, so wat if i hav the speed.. wat's the use of al these now?? they wun get mi anywhere... sorry, miss Alice, i guess i had let u down le.. dun pin anymore hope on mi le.. thanks chun di for havin confidence in mi, thinkin tat i'm up to the u21s standard.. but i'm juz lackin the confidence in myself now.......
anyw, no worries.. i'l stay strong.... i hav learned to fight back the tears from al these yrs...

i'm here bloggin again after so long... yupz.. haven really got the time to blog ever since i started working in changi airport... buzi and tiring.. yupz.. anyw, the results for A level is out.. i got A A B and tat B is chemistry.. pretty disappointing, but at least i hit my minimal target of having 2 As and oso a pass in gp.. so wat can i stil wish for though... the most happy ting of al is tat al the netballers fare well.. haha.. everyone got A A B and a C for gp.. haha.. so qiao.. everyone with the same results.. hey hey, we din copy from each other hoh!!! we took different subjects.. haha.. so tat's the result for studyin together??? -nonsense- anyw.... netballers ROCKS!!!
for mi... the next step is uni... most prob goin to NUS if they accept mi.. yupz.. =)
oso... for those ppl who din fare well this time.. life is not juz abt A level or studyin.. is how u live ur life??? get over this obstacle and live a better life.. who noes, u mayb one of the successful ppl ard... sooo... jia you ba.. al the best.. -huggs-