Time seemed to crawl and the long awaiting thurs (3May) seemed to be not nearing.. I have been staying at home these days and this is driving me mad. I'M BORED.. Most of my friends are still in the mids of their exam and of course, i wont go and disturb them. So basically for these few days, my time was spent on video- watching and the slow motion kind of stats revision. SIANZZZ.. I need a life man.. Booo..

Watched Chungking Express 2 days ago and the song California Dreamin' is still stuck in my brain. This song really brings back a lot of memories. I can still remember how Miss Song used to play this song in every music lesson and made us sing. -_-" not an easy song and the first time we sang along with the music was really bad - our key was terribly off and the coordination was real bad. Everyone laughed their heads off after that trial. and since after, our doors were always shut during music lesson. But that was also the first song we performed on stage during teachers' day. haha.. of cos, our performance was a success. =) The 2nd time when we got onto the stage was during speech day. This time was a dance and the song played was YMCA. And I was arranged to stand in the middle of the stage. haha.. come to think about it, that was so embarrassing. But those days were fun lah. =)

I used to have many ECAs as well- I was a tracker. I was a high jumper (I was a three years champ!). I was a netballer and I am still a netballer. I was a librarian. I was a rope skippper. I was a young science club member. And I used to have the aspiration of becoming a botanist when I grow up. Boo~ But I dont harbour that thought anymore. My grades were the lousiest in class but it doesn't matter to me then. Having fun was the most important.

And obviously, I didnt do well for my PSLE with an aggregate score of 210 only and I landed in Northland after that. Continue my netball journey there and that marked the start of my nightmare. Trainings were torturous, Mr Bok was damn fierce, Mrs Chong was controlling hard on us with the rule set: no dating allowed. Some subject teachers used to find fault on the us, saying that we are always using netball as an excuse for the lousy grades and not submitting homeworks on time. And that was when I have decided to work hard, to get good grades so as to shut their mouths. Indeed, within half a year, I was the top few in class. I managed to get into the first class but I made a sacrifice as well. no.8 a number dear to me always. From then, my life began to be occupied with only netball and studies and nth else. That 2 years (sec 3 and 4), I treated it as a form of punishment for myself. People asked me,"why am I always working so hard for my studies? You never seemed to not do well for any tests" But none of them know, I am earning my chance to attend those netball trainings. I have to obtain good grades, show it to my mum and have her consent to attend those trainings. Since then, I know this logic: No matter what I want, I have to use my hard work to earn it. There's no free lunch on earth. And I hate it when people are waiting for other people to spoon feed them. When people think of Northland, the first thing that came to their minds are ah lians and ah bengs. Students from that school are bad. But it is this notorious school, that transformed me. I am proud to say that I was from Northland, where the netball used to be top in North zone. and thanks to all the teachers who have helped me during those 4 years. I really appreciate that. I can imagine the shocks they will have if i tell them all these over the mahjong table. =D

to be continued..

The always remembered: BSB

Haven't been doing anything constructive lately. Stats paper on thurs which means that I have another week to study. So I'm taking it quite easy. Watched 3 films within these 3 days: I don't want to sleep alone, Boys don't cry and 盛夏光年. And of all, i think 盛夏光年 left me the greatest impact. I'm still in the mids of pinning down my thoughts for the show, in which I'll post it up soon. People, if u have the time, do watch it. And after the film, do sit down alone and think what was the idea behind the story. You will be surprised to realise the complexity of human nature.

Intending to start mugging for stats tml and if i have the time to spare, I'll continue my movie marathon.. the next film up will be Sweet Home Alabama, a movie recommended by the sociology dept. which indirectly depicts about the stratification system in the society. Spiderman 3 is coming soon as well!! I'm going to catch that as well. And I need to start planning for my awaiting 3 months hols.. one thing for sure, that will be lots of majong sessions!! -yeah-

I'm into this song recently!! enjoy..
this is the song lyrics:
說我愛你　從男人的心裡　是最難表達誠實的秘密
說你願意　靠在我肩的你　是最難抗拒動人的回應

△你揚起的嘴角給我愛情的動力　彎彎的眼睛藏不住你孩子氣
　(看你泛紅的臉說出模糊的話語　我的心只聽見你心裡的迴音)
　看著我在你眼(睛)裡　眼神是如此肯定
　那就是我一直等待這美麗△

＊我承認我愛上你的美　你的臉和你的眉
　讓我面對自己無法再自戀 OH BABY
　我承認我愛上你的美　你讓全宇宙失眠
　讓我愛到像流星一樣的墜　我才發現＊
　Repeat（△）＊

睡不能睡　腦海都是你畫面　幸福幫我剪接你的笑臉

我承認我愛上你的美　你的美沒有虛偽
讓我愛你愛到忘了我是誰　Oh Baby
因為你我愛上夜的黑　像搭著無人地鐵
開向你為我設的專屬路線終於看見

我承認我愛上你的美

2 more paper down. and that means I'm done with 3 paper. yeah!! halfway through. 2 more paper to go, one on the wed for BioD and the other on next thurs for stats and then I'm free!! the 3 mths break is waiting for me..

Today was an essay-ful day. written 3 essays for my sociology paper, which has drained much of my energy. Felt quite restless after that and i realised my level of energy is quite low. The soc coursepack was not of use and luckily i din touch it at all. 6 hours break in between after the paper and that stupid bird who claimed that she will call and in the end never. i think she has gotten a new gf there, if not she wouldnt have forgotten about me. hmmmpff.. Mug after that in the lib before going down to Munchie Monkey to look for xiuyan they all for further discussion on marketing. Marketing paper was manageable, just that i was quite shock when i saw the 2 essays qn which were worth 22 marks each. -_-" long essay again. Luckily, the tiredness in me din put me down but instead, i felt more determined to think further and more in depth, for the points that was required in the essays. And i thought i did a pretty good job in the essay part. Hope i will get a satisfied grade for my marketing.

Intensive mugging on bioD starts tml. i think a good rest now but before that, i need my chocolate more. =)

one paper down.. Econs is over, and ok, the paper is quite manageable except that 60mcqs are indeed taxing. Feel so shag after the paper. And this is the first time I came across a paper that has so many errors that needed clarification. So many disturbance in between. I thought that was pretty disorganized on their part. Shouldnt they check the paper thoroughly? okie, nvm.. it's over. 2 more papers coming on mon: Sociology and Marketing. One is at 9am and the other is at 5pm and that means that I have 6 hours in between!! Sianz.. I cant possibly study for that 6 hours right? Nobody accompany me for lunch as well.. =( omg, i feel so pity for myself suddenly. Any kind soul willing to study with me? haha..

Shit.. wanted to study my marketing after this post but I'm feeling quite high after gulping down half a bottle of ice wine. but.. ICE WINE is so nice.. haha..

taking this time to blog while sending my file for printing. My elder bro is finally back after a 1 mth trip to Taiwan and he bought the xiao mi jiu( rice wine) for me!! -whee- The taste is very different from the usual volka or the whiskey that we always drink. At first, I don't really like the taste, and i gave the 'yucks' face. Haha.. Then he said I need to drink more to get the essence in it because he has the same reaction as me back in Taiwan when his fren offered him. Ok, so I tried again and this time, I just finished it in one shot. It has the taste of the PRUNES!! Quite weird, cos i dont remember I caught the prunes taste from the first try. So maybe that's the difference between taking one sip at one time, and drinking it in one shot? And in the end, we finished the whole bottle within er.. 10 min. haha..

Anyw, it's good to have my bro back la, at least, he can help in controlling my hopeless younger bro. He's getting from bad to worst. A report book full of 'U's, always returning home after 12am, talking back to my parents, skipping sch as though he owned the sch.. And he's always asking my parents for money in which I have no idea where he spends the money. and the worst thing is, he smokes. Damn. i hate smokers. My dad is on the verge on throwing him out of the house. He's always the cause of unhappiness at home. Haiz.. I dunnno, I just feel tired at times with the quarrel outside when I'm studying in my room. I just want to concentrate on my studies for this one wk.

ok, enough of lamenting, time to get back to sch. Econs paper this sat. jiayou ba!!

Taking a break now from all the mugging.. Just had tau huey, and somehow it never fails to satisfy me. =)I love tau huey!! Booo.. the weather is making me sleepy and all the rain spoil my run. I guess my goal wont be reached in a wk time. Forget it. I should be concentrating on my studies now. Every day's schedule will be mugging mugging and mugging.. How boring =/ And i wonder how many brain cells of mine will be died during this exam period.

Study progress of the different modules(rating from 1-10):
1) Principles of economics --- 8
2) Principles of marketing --- 6
3) Biodiversity --- 0
4) Sociology(s/u) -- 3
5) Biostatistics --- 0

Obviously the unequal distribution of revision.
Stats will be on the 3may and since i have 8 days to revise after my bioD paper, it's ok for me to abandon it for the moment of time.
Sociology, a module that i have s/u, so the grade wont reflect on my cap. half-hearted will be sufficient.
BioD.. errr.. ok, I'll start tomorrow.
Economics.. the paper is on this coming sat so i have no choice but to start early on this. and special thanks to my T.A. Li Yang for helping a lot in the revision. =)
Marketing.. i never knew that reading the textbook can be so boring. but somehow, i have to squeeze all the info into my brain.


Ok.. enough of blogging.. I need to get back to mugging.. =/

It was a bad start for me today. I woke up late at 9.15 when I have my sociology tutorial at 10. Maybe it's due to my wrong sleeping posture, one side of my ears seemed to be blocked.. arrrrgh.. Anyway, somehow I managed to rush out of the house in 5 min time and thinking back, I was quite impressed by that. It was around 1010 when I reached the campus. I followed the direction given by my friend to the tutorial room and as I pushed open the door, what I saw was all the unfamiliar faces looking at me. Damn. I've got the wrong venue for my class. I double check the room no. with what I have written on the piece of paper. SAME.. AS1 0210. So now, 2 possibilities left: 1.I copied the wrong tut room no. 2. There is no tut today. 10.15 now. I quickly called Mei Chee to help me check my mail for the class venue and another 5 min passed while waiting for her com to start up. I got a real shock when the just-woke-up her told me it's the 16 April today cos that would mean that the tut class that I was rushing had passed. Ok, mail checked and indeed, i copied the wrong venue. It should be AS1 0301 and not AS1 0210. blur me. Rushed to the class and it was 1030 when I finally reached. 6 people in the class including me and that means active participation needed for the class. I was quickly assigned to a group for some politics discussion. A topic of my weakest. I was being pushed to present it and somehow, I managed to crap through using the limited amt of knowledge back in my brain. With my ear blocked, it's really terrible, cos i cant seem to hear my voice and gauge the projection of voice. But i guess, my volume was still ok after seeing some nods by the others.

Went back to science for the stats lecture after the tutorial class. And my ear was still blocked. arrrrgh.. and that Thomas kept buzzing beside me which further adds on to my irritation. Anyway, to everyone.. sorry for the 'huh's during our conversation. I don't mean to be rude. It's just that I cant hear you and my voice as well, that's y the soft spoken me today.

Took the train back after all my classes have ended. and this weird ah pek kept smiling at me. Dunnno y.. Damn irritated by that. But luckily he alighted at the Choa Chu Kang and I finally can get a peaceful rest in train.

Anyway, another weird thing just now. I went to the S.A.M machine to purchase some postage labels. I touched the screen for 2 postage labels and just when I was about to insert the coins( for the payment), the machine dispensed 6 25cents labels !!! -shocked- I looked around for help but apparently there was no one around. Ok, after saying thanks(and i really said that lo), I took those labels and left the place.

oh man, I really have no idea what's happening to me today. Being at home now, in a familiar environment made me feel much more safer and I'm hoping that today will just end fast.

Went to Jin Quan's 21st birthday party yesterday. She is my senior back in Northland. I remembered the days( I was in C div and she was in the B div) when we were training in Northland, under Mr Bok. Those torturous trainings under him were unforgettable. She has always been my goal in netball, to achieve her standard of play although there wasn't much relation between her playing position and mine. She was a C and I was a GA THEN. And people always relate us together because they claimed that our playing style look alike. But till now, seriously i don't see any similarity at all and we don't look alike. err.. Maybe we were equally fierce and both of us are holding the captain-ship then. And as for now, both of us are playing for the same club and under the SAME THEN-NORTHLAND coach. haha.. kind of sad life, ya. Her playing position hasn't changed but mine has. So, we are both the mid-field attackers. I have to admit, when i started out( that was like 3 years ago) playing with her in the same team in the same line-up was kind of stressful. The mentality that she was the senior and I was the junior persist and her attitude on court is something that one need to get used as well. But things got a lot better after we have been playing together for many of the games. And now, there is no such invisible barrier between the two of us anymore. We joke around, make a fool out of ourselves off-court and we understand the emotions and attitudes of each other on court. We are now the strongest combination for mid fielder in the team.. haha.. And since I've returned back to the team, let's just train hard for the coming National League!! -cheers-

Anyway, yesterday birthday party was like a gathering for me as well since many of the ex-northlanders turned up. Jin Quan is now 21 and I'm just 1 yr younger than her and this means that my turn for my age to start with a No. 2 is coming soon as well!! AHHHH!! But.. but.. but.. this will only mean that a new chapter of my life is going to begin and NTH ELSE.

1st EXTREMES training ytd after a long period of break. Killer trg for everyone i would say since everyone hasnt been trg for the past few mths. An unexpected turn up of THE COACH made me feel that i have been duped.. But oh well since i have decided to return to the competitive field, I will keep my morale high and endure any tougher trainings ahead. and that includes the nonsense from HIM that may pop out anytime..

An update about the things we did for the trg ytd, we ran a total of 7 rounds( and yes, i really hate it when the track is next to the netball court- more rounds will be expected for future trgs), did 10 hard sprints across the netball court, countless times of push ups and the never -ending full court drills, and 60+ strong shoulder passes.. So to summarize, we did a lot of runs and passes.. and I dunnno why I am back as a shooter when i have alr been converted to a mid fielder. Hate the feeling of being neither here nor there..

journey back home took me 45 min which further adds on to my tiredness, causing me to make a small embarrassment.. finally my day ended with a cup of freshly squeezed orange juice.. =)