152^nd post marks the last post of the year and it is also the time for wrap up. Tomorrow onwards will be a brand new start, with new challenges to face. 2008 is also the year which I will turn 21 (although I always say I’m 19 forever), and it’s time I guess to act like a grown up and think like an adult. Xiao mei zhang da le!! But xiao mei still hope that she will look the same forever, with no sign of ageing.

This year hasn’t been easy with all the decisions to make. First and needless to say is issue regarding to Netball. Many things had happened in our club. First is the leaving of the coach then after is the rumour of the team splitting. I have to admit, I’m kind of sick of all these rumours and hearsays in the team. All I wanted is to play good netball, have fun in trainings and getting all tuned in times when playing for leagues or carnivals. I’m never interested in politics so all these things happening in the team gradually deter me from playing. Then after is the National League which Chun di became the coach and guided us thru. This league is certainly not an easy feat for us especially when we are in the 1^st div. 1^st div, a div in which all the experts teams like Nike, sneakers, Blaze played in. (ok, I guess only Netballers will know them WELL) But quite glad that everyone really put in their best in playing although we know perfectly well that, we will end up losing for most of the games. Although we ended up being 5^th in the league, this is the league that I have enjoyed most. Maybe because we are playing under a no pressure environment, maybe because I know that chun di trusted me when she put me down to play, maybe its because I’m not under him.. I dunno whether this will be the last league that I’m playing and I certainly hope not. But things are a bit different now.. and it takes time to resolve everything. Besides the club issue, then it is the NUS team. This year I have decided not to play for the team and it’s a decision I have struggled for quite some time. The problem lies with me this time, and I have let down Miss Sng. If I have met her earlier, things would have been different. I know she will definitely be the 2^nd person who can bring my skill to a greater level. She told me this once, "Maybe you find yourselves in the stagnant stage now and you don't see yourself improving. That's why you feel like giving up now. Who hasn't been this stage before?? But if you can overcome this, you will become a better player." I remembered I teared after that. She told me to give her a reply, but i failed to.. cos I really have no idea what I wanted then. She pinned high hope on me, I'm worried that I will disappoint her.. I'm worried that I wont be able to make it.. Then I started to give up gradually.. I have failed this in my life.. So to all netballers or other athletics, I just want to say, don't give up on your dreams.. those dreams that you have once when you are young, don't be afraid to dream big. Everything is possible as long as you don't give up.. and don't be afraid of criticisms; they will just make you grow up to be a stronger person. I have failed, so I don't want to see people around me to follow my footsteps.

In term of studies wise, I thought I was still coping well with that.. this year ended off with a pretty good note, seeing me with an improvement in terms of grades and an overall improvement in my cap. Workload is getting heavier with each semester and all I wish is that I can cope with them and that of cos that includes the stress level. And I do hope that all my frens are able to continue to improve in every sem as well.. Jia you!!

Studies and netball does not account for all my life in this year. The best thing that occurred in this year is none other than being together with my dear.. Sound mushy huh.. –shy- But really need to thank my dear for all the support that he has given. And I know I’m never a good-tempered person so I guess his life hasn’t been easy. =P there are quite a bit of hiccups in our relationship but I’m glad that we have overcome them all.. I just want to say.. I ♥ you.

With that, that ended the last post of the year.. And an advance Happy New year to all.. =)