First, I wish all mothers a Happy Mothers’ Day.

Unfortunately, the queen in my home is not in a good mood recently, let alone to celebrate mothers’ day. And when she is not happy, that’s when all the tragic will start happening at home. Minor includes the not-so-tasty meals that she cooked and major includes all the endless nagging. As a lot of people would have known, I really hate it when someone nags at me, just like how the then netball teacher in charge in ajc did. Arrrrgh.. So staying at home lately has been torturous. All blame to my elder brother for not looking for a job actively ever since he has ORD. and I was being implicated as well. I thought I could have a good rest at home after all the mugging during the stressful exam period. But haiz.. it’s equally stressful now. Booo.. Luckily, I have all the mahjong- kakis, my teammates to accompany me these days. So basically, I’m out in late morning and only returning home at 11 plus. She would have slept by then. Phew~

This is the list of activities for the week (v. simplified):
Mon --- Movie watching + tuition at night
Tue --- Job searching + tuition at night
Wed--- Game watching and training at night
Thurs --- Stayed at home b’cos of all the muscle aches
Fri--- Out shopping
Sat—Mahjong-ing
Sun—Mothers’ Day, so have to give her the face and stay at home

Seriously, I think I need to start looking for a job actively as my to-buy list has been out. I need some inputs before the outputs, if not; I think my mum is going to kill me. My room is still not tidied up as well; anymore inputs will get on her nerves and trigger the nags. I don’t wish to die young.

Anyway, my sense of direction is really bad. Singapore is a small country and yet I can lose my way for so many times. How smart! And thanks Chun di for saying that I’m boosting the economy by spending more on taxi-fare. -_-“ I realized I’m losing direction in my life as well. I’ve chosen the path, and as I moved along, the things that happened seemed not to be what I expected. I need a guide somehow, a street directory for my life. I don’t want to be left alone with uncertainty. What I needed most is a confirmation. I supposed, there is a time limit for everything. I'll walk back if it doesn't work.

I read yesterday’s news just now. 2 NSFs were killed when a jet plane crashed into their stores in Taiwan. I was quite taken aback when I saw one of the photos of the 2 decreased and I sms-ed Jasmine immediately to confirm his identity. And yes, he was the councilor back in AJC. He came down in most of our netball games during the A div to support us and occasionally, I’ll just pop over to chat with him. He shouldn’t have died so young. 19 year old is just too young for everything. He has yet to enjoy his life to the fullest and there are so many things left unaccomplished. From what I have collected from Jasmine, the funeral yesterday was very sad, esp. his mum. The pain and sorrow was understandable. She had lost a son just like that. Felt so sorry for them. That really tells us how fragile life is and we should cherish everything and everyone around us.