IVP has ended after one and a half week battle.. and the great ting is... is... NUS won!! yay!!!!! finally, ntu has to let go( although as much as they dun wan to)of the trophy after 5/6 yrs, i supposed.. cos at the back of the trophy, only NTU is inscribed.. NUS wil be inscribed at the back of the trophy as well.. -cheers- somehow, i feel tat al our hard work has paid off.. those intensive trgs during the weekend were terrible but as a team, we survived and became stronger( both individual play and the play as a team).. great job ppl!! and yes, not forgettin to present the best coach award to miss sng.. u are sucha great coach, seriously.. under u, i had learned a lot of things.. i know where my weaknesses lie, and i'l work hard.. promise u, i'l be a better player the next time u see mi.. yupz...

netball in nus has ended and perhaps it's time to get back to my schwork.. those notes and newly purchased textbks on the table are waitin for mi.. uni life is realli sianz at times and i'm gettin sick alr.. 3 more mths to go.. jiayou ba~~


i dunnno how long i can stand the nonsense.. can someone plz enlighten mi.. can someone tell mi the definition of fren or even gd fren?? does fren has the privilege of sayin smtin hurtful without feelin remorseful?? hah.. or rather does this fren of mine feel tat has said smtin wrong, if not.. this fren of mine would not hav repeatedly said those things..

i remembered durin those trg days, X told mi this.. " aiya, u sure can get into the team one la, there isnt many fielders ard as well"..
i dunnno y, i took it quite negatively cos the msg i've gotten is tat, i've gotten into the team not bcos of my strenght but rather is cos i'm juz there to make up the no. =(

ok, and in the end i really got into teamNUS..

and after our first game against nyp last mon, i remembered clearly the veri first qn X asked when X saw mi, " so did u manage to play for a quarter ytd??" again, my brain took the negative meg.. =(

last thurs, few frens of us asked mi and X if we are free on the comin wed for k box session.. other wed would be fine since it's our free day but not the comin wed cos the teamNUS wil be playin the final( against ntu) and any player with the tiny bit of discipline wouldnt go and enjoy b4 a game.. somemore, it's a crucial game and al players should be resting and conserving their energy.. so i told them tat i'm not free..
but X said, "anyw, u wun be playin wat.. can go with us one la" seriously, at tat moment i juz feel like giving her a slap..
i realli feel like tellin her," at least i'm better than u.. i got into the team.. u didnt" but i noe.. how hurtful tat wil be.. so i act dumb, pretendin tat i din hear anytin.. =( i was hurt, terribly hurt.. =(

ytd durin the final, a fren of mine asked X to congratulate mi on his behalf.. X came over and told mi who and who said congrats and she continues to say this, " anyw, u oso nv play.. so tell u oso quite useless" !!!!! can someone plz tell mi wat kind of reaction should i give X?? once again, i said nth and walked away.. =(

i wish i can heed my coach's advise.. tat X doesnt noe tat the tings that X said were hurtful.. as frens, we muz be willin to forget and forgive.. thanks for tryin to console mi.. but i guess tat doesnt help much cos i find it hard to forgive X in this area.. a person like X should be clearer than anyone abt the pic and yet words like these can be heard comin from X's mouth..

realli.. these 2 weeks hav been terrible to mi.. so at times, i may not be in a gd mood and give the "black" face.. realli apologise for tat.. anyw, i juz hope tat with the end of IVP.. everytin will be back to normal.. and al nonsense wil be gone as well..plz..

i dunnno how long i can stil maintain this brave, "bochup", veri friendly front.. i tried.. perhaps i should juz revert back to my jc times..