zeewai-monster

2009-04-11T01:27:00.000-07:00

Awareness test.. It really depends on how observant and focus you are..

2009-03-05T04:24:00.000-08:00

My schedule till the end of semester.
10 more tests/exams to go
So dead so dead =/

2009-03-01T21:49:00.000-08:00

Now is my turn to do my colorgenic test. Somehow, I remembered i did the test before. Nevetheless, in the amidst of my mugging, I shall take time off to do it!! I wonder if the result is the same as the previous one.. But anyway... I think it is so true (except the optimistic about the future) this time... =/

Utmost in your mind is success. You are constantly seeking stimulation and a life full of experience. You are trying to 'grow' and above all you need to develop freely and to shake off the shackles of self-doubt. You are an enthusiastic individual, full of life with the desire to live intensely. You like contact with others and are enthusiastic by nature. You are receptive to anything new, modern or intriguing. Your interests are many and you are likely to expand your fields of activities. You are optimistic about the future and you deserve every success because deep down you are a 'winner'.

You need an atmosphere of peace and quiet and you would like to share a bond of understanding with the 'right person' - you have the belief that with the right person, your stress and anxiety could be minimised.

All the problems that you have been experiencing of late seem to have become a part of your life and there is little that can be done to change the situation. Your emotions run high - but even though you feel as if at times you are about to burst this situation will pass. Try to release your pent-up emotions by participating in some extra physical activities like running, swimming, whatever. There must be some favourite pastime, not necessarily strenuous, that can help you to relax.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You don't like authority and you rebel against all forms of limitation. You are your own person and you intend to stay that way and to get on in the world simply by your hard work and determination.

2009-01-30T22:31:00.000-08:00

Had a gathering with the Extremes peeps yesterday at Crystal Jade. It was supposed to be a farewell dinner for Sharon but in the end, she didn’t turn up. But at least, she made an effort to meet us after dinner for a drink and a short chit-chatting session. Coach was furious, I supposed and it was wise of her not to flare up as it will dampen everyone’s mood. Dinner wasn’t as great in term of the food but the company was great. It is not easy for the seniors to meet up and this is especially so, since everyone has gone into different phases of our lives. Ade is busy working and travelling around now, Fang, bee and Stella are busy coaching, Bird is only back in Singapore for school holidays and very soon she will leave again for another 6 months and for Shiqi, she is forever busy national training and schoolwork. As for Tong and me, we too, are busy with school works and hardly go for trainings now. Now that Sharon is leaving for good and I’m not sure when I will see her again. I used to see her once a week during training until I stop going for trainings. But from now onwards, she will not be there even if I go for training. All I could do now is to chat with her in either msn or Facebook. I have difficulty expressing what I’m feeling now. No doubt it is the unwillingness to part, but I’m certain there is something else that I’m feeling too. New Zealand is a great country and I think Sharon will definitely enjoy her life there. I will tour New Zealand again if I have a chance to. I will visit her by then for sure and it will be good if she can offer me free lodging. Hahaha..

Anyway, Sharon, I wish you all the best. Take care and you will be missed by us. =)

with <3

2009-01-11T03:52:00.000-08:00

I can’t believe that school is officially starting tomorrow (though mine starts on Tue). Today marks the end of the 1 month break and I have to part with my habits of sleeping at 3am and waking up at 2pm, nua-ing at home and mahjong-ing as and when I like. I don’t look forward for school, I don’t want my break to end, but it is not within my limit. When school starts, time flies and very soon, it will be the mid term test week. After which, is the one week study break for the big thing (the Final Exam). I dread school, I dread waking up early at 630 for school on Wednesday, I dread squeezing in bus 95, I dread exams and I don’t want my friends to graduate. Life will be boring without them. That’s life, I understand, but I’m used to the fun that we had and I don’t want everything to come to an end. Alright, I think it is enough to express how reluctant I want school to start.

Enough for a grumpy post. Back to notes printing.

(To uni friends) see u guys around in school.

2009-01-09T06:31:00.000-08:00

Finally, I'm done with all the modules bidding in this coming semester. It is always this period that has gotten me headache over what modules I should take. And I am forever short of one module to take. Yes, you have gotten me right. FOREVER.
I remembered in sem 2 year 1, I was still short of a module even when school has started because errr.. the lecturer of the module I took was ill/dead (can't remember) and the module was not conducted in the end. Eventually I took a sociology module with Thomas. Okie, this is kind of an unforeseen circumstance and it is not totally my fault.
Year 2 sem 2: took a geography module because there wasn't many choices left. Luckily Alvin, my dear dear took the module with me.
Last semester, Jun suggested to take management science because she was in the same situation as me and yan.
Once again, I was short of one module after my decision on the 4 core modules this semester. It was Jun again who suggested on the basic finance and great enough, me, tong, yan and jun managed to bid the module after using 938 points. Now I'm kind of broke in both P and G account.

And so in the end.. 5 modules settled (Phew~). Immunology, MicroBiology, Neurobiology, Hormones and Health and Basic Finance (Computational Methods for Basic Finance ) This is my time table for the coming semester. Before you are envious over my free day on Monday, take a look at Wednesday instead. 4 freaking lectures = 8 freak hours of lecture. Luckily all the lectures are in Science. I should be glad at least since I don't have to leave Science and travel around in those squeezy shuttle buses. Finally, I'm staying in science throughout in this semester. I love being a Science Geek! =)

2009-01-03T01:24:00.000-08:00

Finally, the HC & LS 4 group peeps managed to squeeze out an afternoon time for karaoke session yesterday. A delayed session (it was formerly arranged on the 18 Dec 2008) but still it was an enjoyable one. My voice was hoarse after the 4 hours of singing. All thanks to Audris Lim for choosing all the ‘killer songs’. Nevertheless we had fun, going out of tune and waiting for chorus before singing. **applause** Steph has such a great vocal and going high pitch is definitely her forte. Plus, she is just like a living jukebox. She knows all the songs that Audris and me chose and practically she knows all the new songs. I wonder why tho, because she is those “eat potato’ people. We converse in English all the time. I thought she will be the one choosing English songs and yes, Audris and me were super alarmed. Anyway, she has an audition for this choir module on Wed and I bet, she will get through it. Choir class as a module in NTU, it sounds odd to me and I wonder what the module really teaches about.

After the fun, now it’s time to go back into serious matter. Module choosing is always the most tedious to me since I’m not one who plans for the entire year. But seriously, if I had planned my modules well, I'll be concentrating in microbiology instead of biomedical science now. Anyway, it's too late for regrets already. I’ll most likely settle on 4 core modules this semester and they are Microbiology, Immunology, Hormones and Health and Neurobiology. All memory intensive modules. Step on it, puny brain. I know you can do it one. =)

2008-12-31T06:04:00.000-08:00

This post marks the last blog entry of the year. Couple of hours later will be the year 2009. First of all,

H A P P Y N E W Y E A R to everyone.

I'm certain that everyone is enjoying the best of their moments now. Enjoying the company of all your dear friends, counting down to year 2009 and watching fireworks. I remember the fireworks last year and seriously it was fantastic. Though it was difficult to make our way through the crowd and to find a good spot to watch the fireworks, all the efforts, hard works and the sweat are definitely worth it. I recalled how I used to hate crowds. But that few minutes of fireworks compensated everything. But I have to say that making way back to the MRT station is worst than the trip there. Hah, it's really quite an achievement when you can make it home safely. Reminder: Do so if you are alright with squeezing through the crowd, making yourself all sweaty and also having our foreign friends squeezing beside you.

To end this post, I hope that all my friends and family will be in great health in year 2009. This should be easy if everyone adopts a healthy lifestyle.

To all my uni friends, enjoy yourself for the next 2 weeks before the school starts. =)
Enjoy!

2008-12-25T08:11:00.000-08:00

Nice =)

2008-12-25T01:24:00.000-08:00

M*E*R*R*Y M*E*R*R*Y C*H*R*I*S*T*M*A*S

I <3 my dear dear

2008-12-22T07:09:00.000-08:00

So fast, 3 weeks of holiday is gone. I don’t want my holiday to end and I don’t want the school term to start again. =( tomorrow is the result day. 1pm. Click “ENTER” after keying all the domain and password and there goes, all the results are out. Hopes weren’t high but I still wish that my cap will increase. I really hope so, considering the time and effort that I have put in this time. I know I will have B+ for both my Prof. comm and management sci, though I secretly hope that after the moderation I can make it up t a A-. Maybe I shouldn’t be greedy and be satisfied with a B+ because who knows; I will land with a B in the end. God.. Better don’t let that happen.

On a lighter note, Christmas is coming!! –Jingle bell~ Jingle bell~ Jingle all the way~~ - Hahaha.. just to lighten the mood for this post. I want to put on my cute puny ‘santa claus hat’ on that day. Sorry, but I do not know the exact term for that thing. Anyone can enlighten me if you know what I am talking about. Many Thanks!

I love Christmas! <3

Best of Luck, my friend!

2008-12-13T00:23:00.000-08:00

New blogskin again. This should be the one which I will use, at least for the next 1 semester. Nice. =)

Today is a rainy day again. I realized I have a love hate relationship with rainy days. No doubt, rainy day is always the best companion for afternoon nap. But rainy day makes me feel grouchy. There is a limit to slacking and nua-ing at home. I need to get my butt off the sofa and so some work outs. My tummy is getting bigger and I can’t stand it anymore. This is definitely an awful sight. Apparently, my tummy needs some discipline now before it gets out of control. So, it’s time to hit the gym! Mon shall be! Then after that lunch is Ajisen!! Ajisen will be my motivation to work harder! –determined-

** advert for Ajisen** all members can enjoy 50% discount when they dine in on Every 3^rd Mon of the month!! Therefore, every 3^rd mon of the month will be Ajisen day for me until the promotion ends!!

2008-12-11T22:35:00.000-08:00

Sorry for the delayed post. I should have updated on Tuesday but I was too busy celebrating the end of my exams!! Finally~~ 3 weeks of mugging and the routiniz-ed life of waking up at 8am and sleeping at 2 pm are over. Yes, it’s over. =)

My days ever since the exam ended have been kind-of well spent:

I’ve met up with people from Extremes because of the 2 days carnival. It was really a surprise to see Shiqi especially, since she has been busy with training and she hasn’t been attending most of our AJ outings. Though I was happy to see my teammates, I was super angry on the 2^nd day of the carnival also because I was scolded for nothing. Haiz.. But what can I do except to swallow my anger and continue with my job. I worked for free, yet I wasn’t appreciated. Sometimes, I wonder whether it is worth slogging hard for him.

I had met up with Audris and Stephanie for lunch @ Ajisen (slurp!) as well. We had planned a K session also, tentatively set on the 18^th December. I’m so looking forward for the fun and lots of photo-takings!

The rest of the days were mostly spent with porky. Ever since the 1 week study break, we haven’t spent much time together except for the daily smses and phone calls. No matter what, I still love my porky! =) And I seriously need my porky to be my purse string. I think I have overspent these days. In one week, I bought an ipod shuffle, 2 tops and 1 shorts, 2 pair of shoes and some accessories. I need a bag still, and I hope that is the last item I will buy for myself. The rest of the money will then be used for entertainment and food. Before I get myself another tuition assignment, I really should curb my spending ‘itch’.

2008-11-13T08:36:00.000-08:00

It's going to be tedious and straining for the next few weeks
But I know fully well how much I can give
& how much I want it.

I believe
I can do it!

Time for hibernation.
See you again on the 2nd Dec
=)

2008-11-09T07:57:00.000-08:00

My Twin Sister!!
She is the one who took all my exams! =)
-Shhhh-

2008-10-29T06:27:00.000-07:00

Queen Bee's 21st birthday!

Happy 21st birthday to the gal in blue =)

*** ***

Zhenyun is a poor little gal
adopted by Kendrick Tan =)

I <3 the specs

2008-10-25T21:41:00.000-07:00

Xiu yan 21st birthday outing

Venue: Shoduku & Gelare

the birthday gal

The AJ team (with Qi missing)

mi and jiao lian

& lastly.. mi and tong

Updates updates..

Finally I’m able to take a breather over this weekend. Perhaps not since I am having a throat infection and down with a flu now. The wisest decision I have made this year is to visit the school doctor which cost me $2.05 for one consultation and not the GP near my place which cost me over 50 bucks for my previous visit. Anyway, I live in ADMIRALTY. So, even if you are not feeling well, my advice is go elsewhere to visit a doctor and not in Admiralty. The burnt you feel is definitely not in your head but your pocket. Trust me! Enough said.

It has been a hectic month (since when it is not when school term starts?). Anyway, the ES project is finally over and the presentation is up next in 2 weeks time. Just hope that everyone presentation will turn out good since it constitutes 15% of our final grade. So Good luck to everyone!

Before I forget,

HAPPY 21^st BIRTHDAY TO XIUYAN =)

We went to Shoduku and Gelare on Friday to celebrate her birthday and it is my 3^rd visit to Shoduku this year. Not that the food is fantastic but it does provide a good ambience for gathering. Anyway, we bought a guess wallet for her since she didn’t it from her boy boy when she has explicitly “hinted” about it. Hah.. Anyway, just want to wish her all the best. =) It’s a pity that Shiqi could not make it on that day, if not the outing on that day can also be deemed as a gathering for the AJ netball team.

Exams are coming up in a month time and it’s time for hibernation again. After which is the one month break in which I am going to slack throughout. Till then, textbooks, reference books, notes, reports, tutorial worksheets are going to be my companion and best friends. Best of luck to everyone! =)

2008-08-28T07:06:00.001-07:00

I’m so glad that this week has finally ended for me and I felt a sense of relieved when I reached home just now. I headed straight to bed after I changed out and I guess, in no more than 10min, I was in lala~ land already.

I don’t know why I felt so tired for this week. The week started off with having Protein lab which I think is the worst lab that I have ever attended. Not that the course work is difficult, but it is tedious with the number of repeated measurement of the absorbance for the reactions to be done. It’s a TOTAL of 30 reactions and we have to monitor the absorbance change of all reactions at 30-sec interval over a period of 3MIN. Besides, those pipettes as provided were old and this made usage difficult. My hands were all red and sore after doing those pipettings. Discussion for lab report comes next. I do appreciate the effort made by the TA to hold additional discussion in which I doubt many other TA did. But his monotonous ‘speech’ makes me want to sleep. I couldn’t make up most of the words he said and I find it really difficult to concentrate. I drifted off for a couple of times but luckily he was patient enough to explain again when I approached him personally. By the time it was back to Prof Teng’s turn to go through the review questions, I felt like dying already. Since she was not going to upload those answers, I'm left with no other choice except to concentrate and jot down as many points that she mentioned. So by the end of the whole 6hr lab, I was both mentally and physically strained. Oh.. and hungry too. (so let’s say my last meal was at 7pm on Sun, then that means that I had gone without food for 22 hrs!! WOW.. that’s like a superb way to go on a diet!!! =P )

The next 3 days saw me rushing out the graphs for the protein lab report, watching the management science webcast, doing tutorial and writing up for the blog entry (ES assignment). Now I’m feeling so pleased with myself for completing all these work and this weekend ahead, will definitely be a joyful and relaxing one. =)

2008-08-25T08:30:00.000-07:00

I realized my life hasn’t been interesting for the past 1 month. It’s a wonder how days just passed without knowing. Nothing much for me to blog about as well, and after much thought, I decided to at least type something here just in case my friends thought that I have gone disappear. “Ta-dang..”

School term has commenced and gone well into the 3^rd week. This semester, I took a module on Effective Communication and until now, seriously, I don’t think I have benefitted much from this module. Perhaps, largely is because most of the time during our lesson was spent on discussion with our classmates, as well as a couple of sharing sessions. Don’t be misunderstood though, our ‘lecturer’, Brad is not to blame and he is definitely an interesting and charismatic one, who constantly shares his experience with us. The main aim of this course is to teach us how to become an effective communicator in various social settings, but most especially, in the workplace. Various points have been taught, but there wasn’t much of a practice yet. After all, knowing and executing the idea is whole lot different. But then again, things might be still early to tell. Hopefully, things that I felt haven’t been addressed will be gone through and I’ll be an effective communicator after this module. Still.. Sorry to say, but I think academic blogging is not very appealing to me. Nevertheless, I’ll still put in my very best for each blog entry for this is a graded assignment.

Well.. I guess that’s all for the time being. It’s really time to start mugging and slogging hard for lab reports, tutorials and assignments before everything starts piling up again. Before that, let me just finish another round of “Who has the biggest brain?” and another episode of Southpark. =P

Seriously, I think Kenny is damn cute

My brain size is 3L big and it is expanding!!

I’ve got to win my bf and put a stop to everything =P

2008-07-24T08:39:00.000-07:00

In the end, Jesline Tan left the office at 1835, marking the end of her 2 months day in Recruit Express. I never knew I would be so emotionally bonded to the people there. Tears were brought close to my eyes when I was about to leave, but being the prideful me; I fought back hard, not allowing my tears to drop. This work has stressed me freak when I just started off. Those few days of sleepless nights, worrying about the number of resumes sent the next day as well as the number of temp out I have to achieve were disgusting.

The idea of quitting sets in slowly. Those ideas like “I should have just settled on an easier and slacker job during this school vacation.”, “Why am I doing so many things when the pay is not high?” and “Why am I making things difficult for myself?” increased my urge of quitting. But everything came to an end after a good talk to Audris. I was impressed by her, actually. All those negative thoughts I had in mind back then became so positive to her instead. She said that I’m a high achiever; I set a high standard for myself, that’s why I’m feeling so stressed up. I can do better if I can take things easy. Maybe she has brainwashed me.. Or maybe what she said is true as well.

In the end, I’ve chosen to not give up for the fear that I’ll give things up easily when I met with an obstacle next time round. I should treat this as a challenge and so long as I tried my best. I would never regret. Besides, if i dun try.. then I wouldn’t known whether this job is cut up for me. I pressed on and hmmm, I can’t really say I have succeeded but at least I persevere to the end. I have learnt a lot a lot of things from Audris.. And I really want to thank her for everything. There was never once that she gave up on me. She gave in to me when I was feeling frustrated and when I was giving the ‘black face’. Somehow, she knows me in and out. (freak scary, right?!)

All in all, just wanna say THANK YOU to her for everything. Who knows.. I might be joining her team when I graduated in 2 years time. But then.. all these will only happen in the future and hah.. of cos, it is still full of uncertainty..

Jesline's table

mi and Audris =)

2008-07-19T22:42:00.000-07:00

16 July 2008

Like any other couples, we did been thru a lot before our r/s become stable
& I'm glad we stayed together no matter what
Let's keep counting..
I love u..

2008-07-18T08:30:00.001-07:00

Recruit Express battle mates

Stephanie Khor (my xiao shi fu~)

Sherlyn Ma, Joleen, Jacklyn and Jesline (all fake names!)
NUS Sci geeks unite!!

The still standing temps (Jol and me!!)

Realised how weird Enrique can be at times!

** More photos coming up.. how can i ever missed out Jefferson and Jacky?! **

** My last day will be on the 22nd July!! **

2008-07-16T21:05:00.000-07:00

Lunch time now and I'm supposed to be enjoying my lunch with my colleagues instead of blogging here and having a packet of roasted duck rice in front of me. I looked so pathetic now lo. Having lunch alone in the office in which the rest (having lunch at 1230) are working now. Today wasnt as smooth sailing and I'm beginning to feel restless alr, or rather the feeling has been lingering since the start of this week. I'm even wearing specs for work today! (realised how slack I am today). Seriously, I dun mind earning less, I just want to slack through my hols until the school term starts. Haiz... I'm leading a sad life now. I dread to work everyday. Joleen is leaving sooooooon, like tmr?? And that means that i would the one only standing among the old tempers. I want to leave also, but that is provided that Audris is willing to let me go. I understand that she needs my help at this point of time, especially when it is nearing to the end of the month. Audris has always been good to me, and i ought to stay. But the motivation to work is no longer there, how on earth am I supposed to survive in the office for the next 2 weeks??

As for now, the only motivation for me to work is to earn money and buy my dreammmm phone. BUT then again, I can well afford it if I leave early as well.. Haiz.. **confused mind**

2008-07-15T08:31:00.000-07:00

It's the LG U990!!

OMG!! it's like so gorgeous, can.. Sleek, Edgy and modern!! Seriously, I think the design for this is better than iPhone lah.. Forget it if you don't agree with me. I'm totally in LOVE with this phone!!

3.2" Touch Screen
Resolution: 240 x 400 pixels
Camera- 5 megapixel with auto focus, 16 x Digital Zoom, Video up to 120fps
Weight: 112g only lo!!

OMG OMG!! I think I'm getting crazy over it alr..

2008-07-12T02:44:00.000-07:00

Healthcare Life Sci 4!!
My creation during office hours. (ooops?!)
=)

2008-07-06T07:38:00.000-07:00

There’s nothing much of an updates on my life since it is hovering around with netball and work. National league has come to an end after the victory against Bedok CSC. The game hasn’t been easy for us since it was played under the hot sun. It has been a long time since I played under the hot sun. and the last time I had training in the afternoon?? Hmmm.. I supposed it was one year back when I was training under the NUS IVP team. Hah... So one imagine how draggy I felt when I was told that the game was in the afternoon. Everyone was drained off even in the mid of the game but understanding that it’s a game that we cant afford to lose, everyone fought hard and this eventually lead to our victory. In case my dear friends and my dear boy were wondering, I wasn’t really burned that day, just felt really dehydrated. Neither did the sun inflict any harm (darkness) to my skin. It was a miracle, I supposed. So now, I’m praying hard that the sun would take pity on me when we visit chek jawa on Tue. Yes, I’m looking forward for the fun, especially with the uni gang and no, I’m not anticipating the sun. Although I’m a sport person and although I’m dark skinned, it doesn’t mean that I love the sun and the beach. So dun be shocked the next time when I say.. I don’t like the sun and I’m not a beach go-er. I love indoor game and I love the moon more. =)

Work has been alright so far. But working in town is definitely not a good thing. Great Singapore Sales, Mid Season sales, End season sales and so on seemed to be never ending. The tempting is always there, to go into the stores and shop. And naturally shopping would mean spending. Hahaha.. I supposed I’m rather prepared for school term already. =) –smug- Pampering myself at times would only give me more motivation to work harder!! Yeah. So now I need to work harder by sending more people to work. Only in this way, I would have more money to spend. Yay!! Jia you Jia you..

I will miss my colleagues when I leave the organization this month. I have really learnt a lot from them this holidays and though stressful, I must admit.. This is the most fulfilling and memorable holiday/ temporary job that I ever had. Thanks a lot, people.. =)

Now I’m missing my dear boy… … I’m anticipating for my gifts as well.. =D

2008-06-21T07:12:00.000-07:00

photos taken on xiao de's bday!! =)

Xiao de and her gift (The bag so pretty right??)Cutting cake ceremony! The AJ team (Best team ever)
& the playersThe Northlanders among AJ team

** I <3 AJ NETBALL TEAM!! **

2008-06-17T06:19:00.000-07:00

Presenting the Street Netball Extremes Team
=)

2008-06-15T08:47:00.001-07:00

Extremes won the Netballuxion @ Marina Square ytd!! Team members include, Sharon, Xiao Tong, Fang Lin, Bee Hsing, Stella and me.. Thanks ppl for putting up a good fight in every of the games that we played. Thanks for the fun and great thanks to Bee Hsing for the moral booster in the last game. If not for that, we might end up losing in the finals. –cheers- What a waste that Chun di is not around at that time, if not I’m pretty sure she will help publicize the matter. =) Emerged as Champion in the open category, we won ourselves $300 cash, $180 cash voucher for crocs, 6 botak jones voucher (buy 1 get 1 free kind), a total of ~$100 of shiseido cosmetic products, 6 handheld massagers and 6 20% off voucher from action city, 2 shoe bags (dunnno what weird weird brand is that), 1 netball, 2 NSL bottles, 6 NSL t shirts and many other small things. The prizes are much better than what I expected so the time and energy spent there were quite worthwhile. =) Team photo will be up next time.

With that… National League continues… 2 games coming up for next week, on Mon and Wed. No more losing for Team Sonique. It’s disgraceful enough to have lost THAT match. So let’s just put in our very best and fight hard. Anyway, here are some of the photo we took from previous wk after our victory against RP.

Team Sonique

4somes.

The mini gathering

Playing netball with the usual ppl is always fun and relaxing. i <3 Team Extremes!! I'm feeling less and less retarded in my move now.. Finally getting back to where i left off the last time.. I'll be back strong again!! =)

2008-06-01T06:33:00.001-07:00

Life has been hovering around with work and netball these days. National league has started and I’m glad that we won our first game with llabten. A good start for the league. The second game was postponed due to the lack of umpires. That was the first time this has happened and we were informed only late at night. It was the organizer’s fault and the reason given was simply that they couldn’t reach us. Chun di was fuming when she learnt about this. According to her, she didn’t receive any msg or e mail from them and according to the organizer; they had tried calling her many times and sent a couple of email. Of course, I would believe Chun di’s words than those irresponsible organizers. Just wondering why Netball Singapore would let these people take charge of national league. Hmmm..

Anyway, working in Recruit Express has been stressful. 2 weeks have passed and I only managed to send 3 people out to work. This is definitely not good. I ought to do better than this. I hate it when I can’t the expectation of others. It just makes me feel lousy. The inculcation of positive thinking by my mentor has failed apparently. Her mentality and mine differ somehow. Her mentality: one must set high goals so that we can stretch ourselves. My mentality: we shouldn’t expect too much as the higher the expectation, the greater the disappointment if we fail. But overall, she is a good mentor lah. She is always full of energy and her memory capacity is just huge! She can remember virtually everything, including my candidates, the date for their interview and the timings as well. Sometimes, it just amazes me. Though work has been stressful, it is still comforting to have nice and fun-going colleagues and a good mentor. This job does offer me a great exposure and certainly allow me to experience the working life when I graduate 2 years later. 2 more months of suffering or 2 more months of challenge. It just depends on how one looks at it.

Our result was released last Friday and I must admit; I did pretty well for that. Bioinfo was real shocking. Shawn can sense how nervous I was when I was about to key in my user ID and password to view my result. I could still remember how worried and ‘fan jian’ I was when I reached home and reviewed how I did for that paper. All the negative thoughts were flooding in my mind then. But in the end, I did well for the paper. I just wonder why. Maybe it’s their mistake for swapping god knows whose paper with mine. If that’s really the case, then it’s just the person’s luck to have gotten my paper and my grade. Din do well for geo but that was within expectation and so, it didn’t affect my mood at all. Overall, it is a good turn-out for me and I hope it is for all my friends. Let’s all continue to work hard for the coming semester. I’m sure everyone can do it de. –cheers!!-

To Mr. Boyfriend, hope u are enjoying your stay there. You have lost the bet and so u owe me a treat now. In case u are reading this, I want to eat ALJISEN and yes the usual set please. Heex.. =) Thanks you!! I’m missing u lots..

2008-05-18T09:10:00.000-07:00

The "D" Personality Type
Direct, Decisive, Driven

The DISC Behavioral model describes four basic patterns, none of which is better or worse than any of the others.

Very few people are purely one type. (Most of us are a combination of types.) This description is of someone who is almost completely a D. See if it describes you or someone you know. (Again, remember it describes an extreme form of a behavior that is often much more nuanced.)

If you are a D personality type, you are concerned about RESULTS..

You enjoy solving problems, getting things done, and achieving goals.
You want to be in charge. (You dislike being told what to do.
You set high standards for performance (your own and other people's).
You trust your ability to produce results.
You enjoy challenges and competition.
You are willing to take risks, challenge the status quo, and break the rules.
You make decisions quickly.
You are impatient with people who "waste time" by talking or planning, who you think are incompetent, or who resist change.
You don't mind telling people they're wrong. You value "telling it like it is." You can be blunt.
You bore easily.
You get angry quickly (and you get over it quickly).

You are energized by...

Working in a fast-paced, results oriented environment
Being in charge
Taking on new opportunities and challenges
Having the authority to determine how things are done
Being able to advance in your career

You lose energy when you...

Are closely supervised or micromanaged
Are questioned or overruled
Can't affect the outcome
Have limited access to resources
Perform routine, predictable tasks

At your best you can...

Get things done, either by yourself or as a group leader.
Be bold and adventurous.
Mobilize people to solve a problem, confront an enemy, or achieve a goal.

You can be a pioneer, a crusader, a leader.

When you are stressed out, you can...

Be blunt to the point of being rude. Like a tank, you run over people's feelings.
Be hypercritical, demanding, and short-tempered.
Make rash and reckless decisions.
Explode when you don't get your way.

At your worst, you can be a bully, a loud mouth, a tyrant.

To be your best...

Take time to gather information and think through the consequences of your decisions.
Instead of just announcing your decision, explain your reasoning.
Consult others, respect their input, and keep them informed.

Cultivate patience. See the value of cooperation.

# # #

How to RECOGNIZE a D personality type...

They tend to be active, extroverted, and always in a rush.
They speak loudly, interrupt others, and come right to the point in conversation.
They like to take charge of meetings and to set the agenda and make the rules.
They can be aggressive, blunt, and impatient.

How to WORK with a D personality type...

Be clear, specific, and to the point.
Be prepared. Present your requirements, objectives, and support material without wasting their time.
Involve them in developing a solution. Let them decide how to accomplish it and give them the freedom to do it by themselves.
Clarify the limits of their authority and available resources.
Don't back down when they attack. Take issue with the facts without confronting the person directly.

What NOT to do around a D personality type...

Chitchat. Try to develop a relationship. Approach them casually.
Waste their time.
Tell them what to do and expect them to do it.
Expect them to pick up on your feelings or unspoken agenda.

Witt Communications offers workshops and coaching to help professionals and organizations use the DISC Behavioral Analysis to improve leadership development, teamwork, or interpersonal effectiveness.

2008-05-16T00:26:00.000-07:00

It has been a long time since I blogged. 2 weeks have gone since the last examination paper and once again, I didn’t manage to leave the examination hall feeling happy. Damn! Since it was long over, I don’t think it will be appropriate for me to add on any details for that. I should be looking forward but NOPE.. I’m not looking forward for the day of results released. What I’m looking forward is the fun and slack holiday aheah. =)

I’ve returned to my club training ever since the exam ended. Training is always fun with familiar faces around. This time, I have chosen to play for the second team instead for the first team. Although the teams are not going to be as strong as those I have met previously, I will still play my very best when I’m on court. I’m not going to let any form of complacency set in. Being apart from the usual teammates makes me feel a little weird at times. Usually when I’m in some kind of “trouble” on court or when things don’t work out as well, that is always Jin quan who I can depend on. But this time, all I have is myself. Perhaps my trust to this team is not there yet. The feeling that “I’m the more senior player” feeling is always there and I just feel that the rest are dependent on me this time. Yucks.. I hate that feeling. Just a couple more weeks before the league starts, so I just hope that everyone can be there for training. By then, everyone should be well prepared for the competition, be it fitness, individual skill, teamwork and mindset.

I’ve met up with the uni pals twice during this holiday as well. First is the mahjong session at Shawn place then is the dinner cum night activity. The dinner was great at Shokudo @ Raffles City Shopping Centre. The whole environment was quite good but I think they should have a better choice in terms of the music played for it doesn’t really fit in. Overall the food was okie, but I supposed it’s usually the company that is the most important. My poor boy hasn’t gotten the chance to visit the place and while we were enjoying ourselves that night, he was there in Ubin, suffering. Here are some of the photos we took that night.

The food

& the people!!

After dinner, we went to the MindCafe @ Boat Quay. It was my first visit there and I was quite surprised by the store of board games they had. Frankly speaking, I wasn’t the kind of people who enjoy board games but I had real fun that night. There were many games that I haven played or rather seen before. Some of the games we played include Ugly Dolls, BONES!!, the concentration game( this has nth to do with any of the board games there), the reflex and the animal sounding games ( both I named it myself cos I have forgotten their actually names). Here are some of the photos we took that night.

Enough of the fun, then it is the job hunting again. Recuitexpress is always the agency that we go to although seriously I don’t think the pay is good. Oh well, at least there is some effort made by me to go around and look for a job. After all the troubles about the waste company issue and offending one of the recruitment consultants, I have landed in a job as a recruitment consultant in Recruitexpress in the Healthcare divison. Hah.. So that made me a colleague with ehem. The interview as a consultant was rather weird as I recount. The first question has already left me dumb-founded. “What are the objectives of finding a job right now for you??” I wasn’t expecting this kind of question so I told her plainly that I haven really thought of that. Then she started telling me her objectives when she was my age then. This provided me with a little clue as in what I have to say. Then I told her it wasn’t really for the money since I do have tuition assignment on hand so it was more of like to keep me occupied. I supposed this answer resulted in my “rather pathetic” pay. “What are the 3 words that your friends often described you?” So I thought to myself, my friends always say that I’m talkative, I’m loud, I don’t have a image for I’m always wearing what I call the relax attire to school. There is no way I’m going to tell that consultant this. But for the 3 words that I said, heex.. confidential. “What are the 3 words you used to describe yourself” sorry, confidential again. Then I was being told to do a personality test (D.I.S.C) and they will base on that to determine if I’m suitable for the job. So it turned out that I have the D character in me. More about the personality test in the next blog entry. Right now, all I hope is that this job will turn out to be fine. Challenging and competitive it may be, just wish that I'm up to this challenge.

2008-05-05T08:47:00.000-07:00

What Your Name Means... ...

You entered: Tan Zhenyun

There are 10 letters in your name.
Those 10 letters total to 49
There are 3 vowels and 7 consonants in your name.

Your number is: 4

The characteristics of #4 are: A foundation, order, service, struggle against limits, steady growth.

The expression or destiny for #4:
Order, service, and management are the cornerstones of the number 4 Expression. Your destiny is to express wonderful organization skills with your ever practical, down-to-earth approach. You are the kind of person who is always willing to work those long, hard hours to push a project through to completion. A patience with detail allows you to become expert in fields such as building, engineering, and all forms of craftsmanship. Your abilities to write and teach may lean toward the more technical and detailed. In the arts, music will likely be your choice. Artistic talents may also appear in such fields as horiculture and floral arrangement, as well. Many skilled physicians and especially surgeons have the 4 Expression.

The positive attitudes of the 4 Expression yield responsibility; you are one who no doubt, fulfills obligations, and is highly systematic and orderly. You are serious and sincere, honest and faithful. It is your role to help and you are required to do a good job at everything you undertake.

If there is too much 4 energies present in your makeup, you may express some of the negative attitudes of the number 4. The obligations that you face may tend to create frustration and feelings of limitation or restriction. You may sometimes find yourself nursing negative attitudes in this regard and these can keep you in a rather low mood. Avoid becoming too rigid, stubborn, dogmatic, and fixed in your opinions. You may have a tendency to develop and hold very strong likes and dislikes, and some of these may border on the classification of prejudice. The negative side of 4 often produces dominant and bossy individuals who use disciplinarian to an excess. These tendencies must be avoided. Finally, like nearly all with 4 Expression, you must keep your eye on the big picture and not get overly wrapped up in detail and routine.

Your Soul Urge number is: 9

A Soul Urge number of 9 means:
With a 9 Soul Urge, you want to give to others, usually in a humanitarian or philanthropic manner. You are highly motivated to give friendship, affection and love. And you are generous in giving of your knowledge and experience. You have very sharing urges, and you are likely to have a great deal to share. Your concern for others makes you a very sympathetic and generous person with a sensitive and compassionate nature.

You are able to view life in very broad and intuitive terms. You often express high ideals and an inspirational approach to life. If you are able to fully realize the potential of your motivation, you will be a very self-sacrificing person who is able to give freely without being concerned about any return or reward.

As with all human beings, you are prone to sometimes express the negative attitudes inherent to your Soul Urges. You may become too sensitive and tend to express emotions strongly at times. There can be significant conflict between higher aims and personal ambitions. You may resent the idea of giving all of the time and, in fact, if there is too much 9 energy in your nature you may reject the idea. You may often be disappointed in the lack of perfection in yourself and others.

Your Inner Dream number is: 4

An Inner Dream number of 4 means:
You dream of being a very solid citizen that people can depend upon. You strive for organization and predictable order. You want to be recognized as a person with a plan and the discipline to make that plan work like clockwork.

2008-04-20T00:21:00.000-07:00

I think I have overworked these days..
reports and exams, all piling up..
somehow my mum has the ability to make everything worse..
scolded by her today for not finding a job in advance.. (and I find that absolutely stupid)
then she told me not to go for my 4th year..
it's either she thinks that I don't have the ability or she just want me to enter the workforce, fast
Ignoring her, I entered my room, stared at the wall and start crying
silly me..
to think that I actually teared because of this.
maybe I'm really tired..

And why do I have the feeling of giving up everything now??
damn..

2008-04-18T22:59:00.000-07:00

3 more weeks of hell.. I'll survive through.. I'll leave the exam hall smiling, I promise..

3 months of hols.. sounds great! but somehow I'm not anticipating it.. Lousy feeling.. -yucks-

Enough of grumble..

Next work on hand.. Bioinfo report..
Next exam.. Perfume and cosmetic- hard-core memory work.

I'll be a cave-woman for the next 3 weeks..
bye-bye

2008-04-07T02:04:00.000-07:00

It’s has been a long time since I blog. In case some people wonder, I’m not dead yet. This semester is really hectic, especially towards the end of the semester when all the project and lab report deadlines are nearing. Done with the perfume project in which I or rather we (Shawn and py) are very proud of. This is our A** project. Considering the time and effort we have put in, we are expecting something GOOD this time. Le Papillon is going to hit the market big if there is ever this product. HAHAHA.. Alrighty, enough of self-praising. Anyway, the nerve wrecking mini-project lab has finally ended, and we should be starting with the lab report which constitutes 40% of the entire grade like real soon. Next week is our LSM 2202 test, after a wk is the LSM 2103 test, then it’s the study break BUT my perfume exam starts on the very first Saturday. FEW days later will be my LSM 2103 test again followed by my GEO test then finally is the LSM 2104 test!! This means to say that from next week onwards, I will be having test every week till the whole semester ends.. great!! Thanks!! I’m like so looking damn forward for that.. arrrrgh.. To make things worst, the professors have announced that we have to submit our lab report like 1 week earlier then the initial stated deadline.

So the bottom line of this blog is that I’M DEAD!! –wish me luck tho-

2008-02-26T21:18:00.000-08:00

studying hard... =/

2008-02-23T21:51:00.000-08:00

OK.. Once again, SCIENCE lost to ARTS in the Netball IFG’08.. The score was 28-29 to arts. Seriously, it was a defeat that I can’t accept till now. We have an advantage over them, in terms of individual player’s skill. Today’s victory should belong to science and I’m supposed to be happily taking a gold medal back home and not the silver medal. If it was the former me, I would have thrown the medal away. The presence of the medal will remind me of the loss. I don’t like the feeling so I won’t let that happen again. Anyway, for those who were at MPSH 6, I’m sure they will agree that today’s game is an exciting one.. it was a close fight throughout.. the score difference throughout the game was never once more than 4. Everyone really fought hard.. and I kind of missed the feeling in playing these kind of tensed game. After the game, Ade came over and told me the kind of line-up they thought we will put which really stroke upon me. Why hasn’t anyone thought about that? Haiz.. Everything has come in too late and SCIENCE has to admit defeat once again. Congrats to ARTS tho.. They had the kind of teamwork which we lacked. I supposed it’s the teamwork and the composure they had that leads to their victory. Good game too, Ade and hunny!! =)

Maybe it’s time for me to get rid of all my lazy bones and start going to training. Sharon hasn’t replied me.. and I dunnno why this is the last year in playing.. But even if I get back now, cos of my ‘disappearance’ for such a long time, I would most likely be banished to the second team.. =P

P.S. I love you
so sad and yet so beautiful..

2008-02-21T18:41:00.000-08:00

today was stupid, somehow.. got up early around 9 but because i was dilly dally-ing at home (in which i have forgotten what i have done), I ended up having to rush out of the house. Packed my bag in a hurry and I forgot to bring my cosmetic book as a result. Going in for the lecture become pointless then.. skipped the geo lecture as well, since it was webcasted plus i hate the idea of squeezing in the train and bus upon returning back home.. While in the train, i made plans to get some work done when i got home.. in the end... got tired and took a afternoon nap.. sianz.. nth accomplished.. Shawn was right.. " you wont get anything done when you mood is bad"

2008-02-17T00:26:00.000-08:00

It’s the mugging season again.. YEAH!! Crap.. there’s nth exciting about burying my head in books. With the end of cny celebration, oh well.. at least that’s for me, then now is the time to dig out all the notes and start studying. CA for Expt mol and cell bio is on the 20^th and I guess I’m supposed to be studying now. But somehow the mood of studying is not here YET and when the studying mood is not here, nothing goes into the brain. This is definitely not a good sign. In a way or another, I must force all the information into the puny brain of mine. And since this is the first test for the sem, I must make a good headstart. Yes!! I must maintain this mentality and this shall be the force for my studying. –determined- To all my frens mugging for tests, study hard!! Jiayou jiayou!!

Anyway, I was kind of planning for my 3mths hols after this semester. Working is definitely an option for me. I guess it's time for me to get back to my club before bok starts calling to scold. Stamina is a must and i know it's going to be hard for me to start training again, especially to pick up from where i left. People expectation from me is still going to be 'there', but i know deep down, I'm no longer 'there'. As for ken, he is going to be real busy.. First is Project Angel X in which he is flying off to Cambodia. Not long after, he is flying off to US for SEP then comes back for SOW. I think I need make an advanced appointment just to meet him up lo.. Haiz.. Whatever it is, there is still a long way to go before the 3 mth hols. Those projects, exams are still waiting for me..

Enough for thoughts.. Okie. I’m off to sleep. STUDYING HARD TMR!!

2008-02-08T12:44:00.000-08:00

First day of the cny ended off quite early for me. This year is especially boring to me somehow; it wasn’t as joyous as the past years. Routinized as it may sound, the first place we used to visit is always our great grand mother’s place. Needless to say, with her status in the family, most of our relatives will make a trip there and eventually, that became the “gathering” point. My brother and I always have great difficulty remembering how they are related to us and of cos, the way to address them. So most of the time, we just smiled and if our parents are somewhere near us, we will seek them for help. Hongbaos were then distributed among the children. Sometimes, they can’t even remember who our parents are and have to ask us. But that doesn’t matter since we are never at the losing ends when hong bos are available. =) But everything has changed ever since my great granny passed away 2 years back. Nobody visit the place anymore. And that made our visiting even shorter. A good 6 hours is enough for us since we only have 3 places to go.

And the places that we visit are no longer as crowded.

First place: grandfather’s (my dad’s) place. That was the place where I used to live after we sold our 3-room flat. I enjoyed visiting there cos I was especially close to my aunt.

Second place: my grandma’s (my dad’s) place—the place for lunch. Then after we make our way to the

last stop: my aunt ( my mum’s sis). I would say I don’t really enjoy my stay there at times. There is nothing much for me to do over there. Yes, there are my cousins and their frens gambling there. But I JUST DON’T LIKE TO GAMBLE WITH THEM. I don’t like the vulgarities that they use. My small cousin (4 years old) even scolds cb when someone irritates him. Haiz. Besides, people converse by shouting. I’m loud in some sense, but they can be much much much louder than me. Worst thing? Smokings.. So in the end, my dad and I left early, leaving my mum and younger bro there. And with that, that ended the whole relatives-visiting of the year.

2008-02-05T13:43:00.000-08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!
MORE ANG BAO
MORE BAK KUA
MORE MAHJONG
MORE FUN
LESS EXAM (oops)

New year resolutions: great results!! great health!! great romance!! great friendship!! more money!!

2008-01-19T15:20:00.000-08:00

It has been a week since school reopened. It was supposed to be a five day study week, but in the end, I only attended school for 3 days. Before you condemned me to be an ultimate slacker, think about this: Tue and Fri only require me to be in school from 4pm-6pm and the lectures are all going to be webcasted. Besides, I need an hr plus to travel from home to school and back home. So I supposed, any people with some sense will find it reasonable for me to stay at home and watch those webcasted lectures instead, right?? Seriously, I thought that was a perfect reason for me to escape from feeling guilty. At least for now, I’m done with watching both the lectures for this week.-winkz-

It’s still early to make conclusion with regards to school life since the WORST HAS YET TO COME. Tutorials, lab works will only commenced next week so this week is still considered pretty slack for me. Projects are expected to come in slowly, and basically most of the modules that I have taken this semester will require me to do some projects.. Good news? the exam weightage will be smaller. Bad news? It will take up a lot of my time. BUT before that, my priority now should be getting into CNY mood which is in 2 weeks time!! -whee!!- Now I'm thinking if I should do more shopping.. hahaha..

That's all for now, back to printing notes then proceed to my afternoon nap..

2008-01-08T00:12:00.000-08:00

This week is EXERCISE week. Finally there are some actions on my side. It’s useless if I keep saying that I want to exercise but that’s no action.. So finally.. finally.. I went to the gym today!! What an achievement?! I’m kind of aching now but I’m determined.. DETERMINED to train up my abs. I should stop the habit of lying down after eating as well. My stomach is getting rebellious, getting out of shape already. This has to stop and that’s why the implementation of this exercise week. Hahaha.. Gym session today.. Tomorrow is ‘swimming’ session but its mahjong session actually. =P –guilty- Jogging on wed and cycling with the gals on thurs. Planning to have badminton session on either fri or sat. Yupz.. so that’s my temporary schedule for the week. Busy busy~ School reopens next week, so I must fully utilized this last week. I should stop nua-ing at home and brooding over all the problems and troubles I have. Keeping myself occupied is the best thing to prevent myself from thinking nonsense stuffs..

2008-01-06T13:45:00.000-08:00

Online shopping has always been a pleasure experience for me. Things that I have purchased over the Internet have always been delivering on time and the items have always been up to the standard. It’s until recently when I bought something from this website that has irritated me. I swear upon that I will never purchase anything from this website anymore. The seller, who is only in sec school I think apparently, has no judgment in terms of time. She is mostly late on meetups. Ok, don’t be misunderstood by the ‘meetups’ for I have only bought once from her webbie. I gave her my contact no. so that she can contact me when she is arriving and it’s easier for recognition.

First meetup was fine, she dropped me a sms saying that she is reaching soon and I went down from home to the MRT station to meet her. Fine, she passed me the things that I have ordered and left. It’s only when I reached home then I realized that the 2 things that I have ordered, apparently is the same thing, same size can be so different. Fine.. I sms-ed her asking for the reason and she replied saying that it’s bcos of the colour that I have ordered is out of stock, that’s y she changed it to the other brand. -!!- shouldn’t I be informed that the colour that I want is out of stock?? How can she make the decision without asking me? Fine, I asked for an exchange for the size and colour then, since it is out of stock.

Second meetup: she told me to meet her at 330 at cityhall. Okie.. I went down and it was 335 when I reached. She was not there yet. Okie. I waited and later a sms from her saying she will be late, 345 then she will arrive. So I waited and the time that she reached in the end?? 4pm, which means that I have waited for 25min!! what a waste for my time lo!! Most important thing is when she arrived; there was no apology from her at all!! And when I asked her again if she remembered about the exact colour and size that I want, she said yes.. okie.. I thought this time will be ever the last meetup already. She told me to wait for another 20min so that she can go about to make the exchange. Fine, so I went shopping happily. 30min later, she called saying that she arrived so I went to meet her again.. blah blah blah.. then I got my items back. It was then… on the way back in the train, then I realized, damn it, she got the wrong size again!! and the colour was slightly off. Damn.. I trusted that she will get it right this time and it turned out that I’m wrong. Stupid me to trust her.. so I smsed her AGAIN, why is it that when I told her the size and re-asked her to make sure she remembered, and in the end she can still make mistake. She replied, I have measured, the size u have asked for is the same.. -!!!!!- really feel like slapping her this time, the difference is SO DAMN OBVIOUS and she can still tell me she has measured. I bet her school never teach her how to do basic measurement if not, I bet her mathematic has failed badly. I dropped her an e mail and a sms, but till now she has yet to reply so I assumed she is trying to avoid me already. I’m so freaking pissed off..

So people, I urged u all not to buy anything from her..

This is her website- http://www.miss-beebee.blogspot.com/ don’t buy anything from her!!

This is the worst ever online shopping experience that I had..

2007-12-31T16:30:00.000-08:00

152^nd post marks the last post of the year and it is also the time for wrap up. Tomorrow onwards will be a brand new start, with new challenges to face. 2008 is also the year which I will turn 21 (although I always say I’m 19 forever), and it’s time I guess to act like a grown up and think like an adult. Xiao mei zhang da le!! But xiao mei still hope that she will look the same forever, with no sign of ageing.

This year hasn’t been easy with all the decisions to make. First and needless to say is issue regarding to Netball. Many things had happened in our club. First is the leaving of the coach then after is the rumour of the team splitting. I have to admit, I’m kind of sick of all these rumours and hearsays in the team. All I wanted is to play good netball, have fun in trainings and getting all tuned in times when playing for leagues or carnivals. I’m never interested in politics so all these things happening in the team gradually deter me from playing. Then after is the National League which Chun di became the coach and guided us thru. This league is certainly not an easy feat for us especially when we are in the 1^st div. 1^st div, a div in which all the experts teams like Nike, sneakers, Blaze played in. (ok, I guess only Netballers will know them WELL) But quite glad that everyone really put in their best in playing although we know perfectly well that, we will end up losing for most of the games. Although we ended up being 5^th in the league, this is the league that I have enjoyed most. Maybe because we are playing under a no pressure environment, maybe because I know that chun di trusted me when she put me down to play, maybe its because I’m not under him.. I dunno whether this will be the last league that I’m playing and I certainly hope not. But things are a bit different now.. and it takes time to resolve everything. Besides the club issue, then it is the NUS team. This year I have decided not to play for the team and it’s a decision I have struggled for quite some time. The problem lies with me this time, and I have let down Miss Sng. If I have met her earlier, things would have been different. I know she will definitely be the 2^nd person who can bring my skill to a greater level. She told me this once, "Maybe you find yourselves in the stagnant stage now and you don't see yourself improving. That's why you feel like giving up now. Who hasn't been this stage before?? But if you can overcome this, you will become a better player." I remembered I teared after that. She told me to give her a reply, but i failed to.. cos I really have no idea what I wanted then. She pinned high hope on me, I'm worried that I will disappoint her.. I'm worried that I wont be able to make it.. Then I started to give up gradually.. I have failed this in my life.. So to all netballers or other athletics, I just want to say, don't give up on your dreams.. those dreams that you have once when you are young, don't be afraid to dream big. Everything is possible as long as you don't give up.. and don't be afraid of criticisms; they will just make you grow up to be a stronger person. I have failed, so I don't want to see people around me to follow my footsteps.

In term of studies wise, I thought I was still coping well with that.. this year ended off with a pretty good note, seeing me with an improvement in terms of grades and an overall improvement in my cap. Workload is getting heavier with each semester and all I wish is that I can cope with them and that of cos that includes the stress level. And I do hope that all my frens are able to continue to improve in every sem as well.. Jia you!!

Studies and netball does not account for all my life in this year. The best thing that occurred in this year is none other than being together with my dear.. Sound mushy huh.. –shy- But really need to thank my dear for all the support that he has given. And I know I’m never a good-tempered person so I guess his life hasn’t been easy. =P there are quite a bit of hiccups in our relationship but I’m glad that we have overcome them all.. I just want to say.. I ♥ you.

With that, that ended the last post of the year.. And an advance Happy New year to all.. =)

2007-12-28T17:12:00.000-08:00

Result was out ytd.. Better than what I have expected for this semester except for the B that I have.. Cap was pulled up as well. Food and health was unexpected, cos the feeling when I left the exam hall was terrible, thinking that I'm going to do badly for that. Luckily it turned out to be good in the end, very satisfied with that in fact. Molecular Biology turned out to be good as well. Did well for metabolism.. Anyway, congrats to shawn, Alvin and Thomas with the improvement.. Let's continue to work hard together for coming semesters!! With the result released, it marked the end of the Year 2 sem 1. Two more weeks of hols to go and the 2nd sem will start. The upcoming sem will be a busy one, with all the lab works.. haiz.. going back to school everyday is a must i guess..

Anyway, went to the Alvin's place to play mahjong cum pre-birthday celebration for shawn. In the end, Alvin is only the winning party.. Maybe this 23 years old uncle of mine will only get his luck on the actual birthday date. =) Not young le hoh.. -giggles-

2007-12-25T18:29:00.000-08:00

٭M∙E∙R∙R∙Y C∙H∙R∙I∙S∙T∙M∙A∙S٭

Half of the Christmas eve was spent at home, doing nth else except of watching TV. Decided to head down to Orchard at night and witness the crowd in there. This is the first year I have went down to orchard during the festive-eve, and hahaha.. okie.. at least I have experienced the crowd for this lifetime. A normal 5 min walk from orchard mrt station to taka took me around 30 min this time. That was even a time, when we cant even forward and have to stand there, unmoved. Not forgetting those banghra who are just plain rude and kept pushing around when everyone is trying to move orderly..

caught in the crowd, on the way to taka..

I guess the pic speaks for all.

the only Christmas tree in town..

& last of all.. mi and my dear.. =)

Results will be released in few days time..

♥♥ my christmas wish... hope I can have a decent grade this time.. gd luck for my frens as well!!♥♥

2007-12-19T17:56:00.000-08:00

Another 3+ weeks of hols to go before the school term starts again. Not that I’m looking forward to studying and having exams, but this hols is seriously boring, upsetting. I guess this is ever the worst hols and the worst month that I had. I’m sick of online shopping, sleeping till late.. I dun feel like watching Romantic Princess anymore when I have 3 more episodes to go. My room is still in a mess but I’m not in the mood to tidy up. I know my dad will start nagging soon if he can’t stand the untidiness anymore. But I’m not going to care about that as well. I’ll just let him nag and probably that will give me the drive to get something done. My life is in a total mess I think. I don’t feel like going for training as well, even though I’ll have the chance of meeting up with the rest. But I really dun feel like training under him. And since, I won’t be playing for the coming carnival; I see no point of me going for training. There is no motivation for me to train, I don’t see the point of training up my stamina but I’ll head down to the gym one day for a good sweat-out. I should start planning a life for myself instead of living for others. No point of cheapening myself as to say. I understand why I am so hurt this time.. That's cos.. my pride was hurt this time.

I no longer felt longer valued

2007-12-18T15:25:00.000-08:00

I have to admit. I can’t get over it. Every time when I think about it or was reminded, I will feel like tearing. Really hate this feeling. I hate this especially at night. Sorry if I have to keep lying, saying I’m fine. This is what I hope for though. It won’t help even if you feel bad. Anyway, thanks people for ur concern.. I hope the usual me will be back soon..

Silence will not help in solving problem. and even if time can help in healing the wound, it will only heal the wound that is on the surface, and not totally. Deep down, the wound will still persist, the barrier between us will always be present.

2007-12-17T10:44:00.000-08:00

I teared ytd..
As 1 tear falls,
the rest flows out uncontrollably..
it's terrible in the middle of the night,
where everything goes quiet
negative thoughts starts pouring in
even the sound of the cars come driving by cant stop those thoughts.
wanted to find someone to talk to..
in the end still chosen to keep everything to myself
tearing is tiring...
I dun wan this to happen again..

2007-12-14T15:57:00.000-08:00

New blogskin, new look..
A more girlish kind of blogskin I have chosen this time round. No reason behind it, cos everything is just kind of random. Searching for a blogskin is really not easy and it's tedious to shift those personal details from the old blog to the new one. My eyes are already blurred from those scripts. But finally.. I'M DONE.. comment comment??

Met up with the uni peeps for breakfast in Hong xin yesterday. Hahaha.. the breakfast was great of cos but i think I kind of asked for it. Meeting up for breakfast means that I have to wake up early and given that the restaurant was located at chinatown means that I have to wake up at an even earlier time which is around 9am. -_-" okie.. this is really considered early for me since I have been sleeping at 4 plus am these days and my wake up time ever since exam has ended is errr.. 1 plus pm.. =P teeny-weeny bit of disappointment for the dim sum there cos the xiao long bao is not really good and that's my ultimate purpose for having breakfast lo..

After breakfast, we walked and walked and walked and walked all the way to Far East. My legs are aching by then but we continue shopping around to Paragon, to Taka then after that it's the lunch again!! Had the tom yam ramen at Ajisen!! Hahahaha.. that's my favourite and I saw that BIRD!! omg.. it has been really long since I last saw her.. Nth much, we just caught up a bit cos i have to return back to my meal and she has to continue shopping with her boyfriend. To BIRD.. we need to meet up like reeeeeeal soon..

i heart my frens!!

2007-12-12T14:15:00.000-08:00

不想懂得 by 张韶涵

Have been into this song lately. I guess I'm under the spell of Romantic Princess already. Nice show =)

当世界不知不觉的变冷
有时候我怀念以前的我
做的梦虽然远远的
想象是一种快乐
拥有了同时也失去什么
而眷恋原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里承受
心开始曲折

我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我不想舍得不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是符合　
我想照顾就是幸福的

当世界不知不觉的变冷
有时候我怀念以前的我
做的梦虽然远远的
想象是一种快乐
拥有了同时也失去什么
而眷恋原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里承受
心开始曲折

我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我不想舍得不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是符合　
能握着手感动的

我愿意一秒钟放弃全宇宙
挤在只有我们紧靠的小星球

我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我多不舍得多不懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是符合　
能握着手是感动

说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什么
我多不舍得多不懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是符合　
能握着手是感动

2007-12-07T00:10:00.000-08:00

I’m here to deliver good news: MY PAPER HAVE ENDED & MY HOLS HAS STARTED!!

Finally the semester has ended. Looking back, it hasn’t been easy though. This sem has been busy for me, somehow. Maybe it’s because of the numerous stats assignments, food health assignments and my IT project which has ‘unknowingly’ take up a lot of my time. But it’s ok now cos everything has come to an end!! No more of textbooks, lecture notes.. and no more of Glycolysis, Epigenetics, Wilcoxon signed rank test, Natural toxicant and Modes of network.. Simply put.. I’m FREED!!

The exam results will be release on the 27^th December and I do hope I’ll have a harvest for this sem given the time I have devoted on revising.. Hmmm.. but frankly speaking, I wasn’t very hopeful every time I stepped out of the lecture halls.. haiz.. okie.. enough of this worrying.. I’m not going to let all this disturb my wonderful hols ahead. I’m going to enjoy myself and only worry about the results on that day.

For this dec, I’m going to..

1) Spend lots of time with my boyfren!! =)

2) Finish watching 公主小妹 Romantic princess

3) Do lots of online and retail shopping –whee-

4) Have a lot of mahjong sessions

5) Slack and sleep like nobody’s biz

6) Start training up my stamina and build up some muscles.. I really can’t stand the unfit me anymore

7) Meet up with that bird someday.

8) Pack and tidy up my messy room.. =/

9) … …

To all my uni peeps.. ENJOY UR HOLS!! And all the best to Thomas as well.. enjoy urself over at Australia with Alvin’s ‘best fren’.. hahaha..

2007-11-08T21:14:00.000-08:00

This is how the story goes..

Once upon a time, Mr Copperman has 2 wives; first wife is sitting on his left and the second on the right.

And old time story is that the second wife is always jealous of the first wife. So when the first wife is not around, this is what she will do..

This is what happened to the first wife after Mr Copperman is under the spell of the second wife. – being a coolie..

Of course, an influential man like Mr Copperman is never satisfied with having only 1 woman in his life. And this is what happened..

Knowing that her status has been threatened, a smart person will know naturally what to do..

However, it seemed that whenever she goes, she follows.. (** ooops.. the who-who-who no chance liao.. =P)

In the end, both are in love with the same man.

Fate of first wife—unknown.

It was till the end then these 2 women know, they still prefer stronger and tougher man over old man..

Mr Copperman?? Probably still flirting around..

** The end **

Cam-whoring..

Somehow, I look fair.. =)

Bored =/
Back to biochem
To all my frens out there mugging hard for biochem.. JIAYOU!!

2007-11-02T22:42:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY TO XIAO TONG!! =)

*spastic photos coming up next.. =P

2007-10-29T23:24:00.000-07:00

No more online shopping from now till the exam time!!

2007-10-22T16:25:00.000-07:00

PMS symptoms: may be both physical and emotional.
Physical symptoms as headache, migraine, fluid retention, fatigue, painful joints, backache, abdominal cramping, heart palpitations and weight gain.
Emotional and behavioral changes may include tension, irritability, mood swings, or crying spells

Boo.. I hate those few days of the month.

Sweating out is a good way of eliminating emo shit..

Just came back from the gym. It has been a long time since I went to the gym and have a proper sweat out. Aching is expected tmr but oh well, at least it helped me do away with my emo shits.. Training is starting next week, and that gives me more chance to exercise and start moving my old bones before they get lazy and brittle. Looking forward to meet the gals and hope that the attendance this time will be good since big boss is back. Boo.. going to get hell from him again..

Oh yah, I met a kind soul in NUS recently. He returned me my thumbdrive which I left it in the com lab. Careless mi~ the thing is he could have just deleted all my files and kept in possession but he didn't. so nice of him.. =) Thanks..

Work done during the weekend:
webpages for IT project..
& nth else.. ooops..

okie.. time for afternoon nap..

2007-10-21T16:45:00.000-07:00

Happy 20th birthday to MA XIU YAN!!
welcome to the 2- group.. LOL!!

2007-10-18T23:45:00.000-07:00

Just witnessed the IVP netball final, with NUS playing against NTU. Nus lost this year, and had to return the championship trophy back to ntu. I hate to say this, but ntu is indeed stronger than us this year. NUS could have put up a good fight as well but the loss of the 2 important players first is Shu ting then Liyana, is simply too much for the team. I would say, the game is half lost as the 2 of them departed from the game, with Shu ting suffering knee injury and Liyana has her head injured when she was knocked down. I’m wondering how the gals are coping with the loss and in fact, it affected me as well. It felt as though, I lost the game too, although I wasn’t in the team. I have never regretted my choice of quitting the team then, cos I know I would not be happy if I continued. Besides, I won’t be able to cope with my studies also. But the thought of ‘what if’ is always lingering around. What if I continued then?? Will I be a better player?? Will Miss Sng be able to bring me to a higher level of play?? I felt like a coward at times. What happened just now was that; I don’t even have the courage to go over and say hi to Miss Sng when she was alone at the bench. I let her down, I failed to give her a reply and have all the intentions to avoid the issue. I didn’t settle the issue properly and yes, I’m being immature for that and I ought to be ashamed of myself. When will I ever grow up?? Perhaps I have never wanted to grow up in the first place. How nice it is to stay forever as a child. At least, one will be free of worries and also, the study stress.. Hah, and look by saying all these, doesn’t it show out the immaturity side of me again?? Netball is no longer as pure as I used to think it is. All the politics behind is turning me away from Netball. But I know one thing for sure; I’ll never give up playing netball. The skills and experience that I'm enriched with for the past 8 years should not be wasted like that. I know I will no longer be able to play professional netball since the stress level is not something I can undertake. I just want to train with people that I always train with. I no longer want to venture out. U can say that I’m such a disappointment but I do hope, my decision is respected…

2007-10-15T23:17:00.000-07:00

Finally the molecular biology test was over and since it’s over, I’m not going to comment anything about that. We skipped the biochem lecture after the paper to have lunch at the crystal jade. A long 4 hour break before the stats lecture. I forgotten how our PSLE grades became one of our conversation topics and apparently, my 210 was being looked down by the rest!! -_-“ Kind of regretted after I said it out. But oh well, I think I deserved the score since I have like activities everyday then. Athletics training on every mon and wed, library duty on every fri and sience club meeting on every thurs. Hahaha.. All that contributed to the lousy grades but I love those days still. =)

IT project discussion over at my house after our stats lecture. Okie.. At least we made some progressions but we still have a long way to go upon completion. Did the IT mini assignment on sat and I’m only left with the uploading of my webpage before calling it an end. Hahaha.. I will establish the link to my webpages next time. (And I think I’m really a mug!!) Watched the animated film, monster house with Kendrick also. And the only thought I have for that film is that all fatty boys look alike somehow and they love to do some exaggerated actions to attract attention. Hahaha..

And yes, finally I went to watch I now pronounce you Chuck and Larry and I understand about the triangle, circle and the hand sign that Thomas, Alvin and Shawn are doing. Funny show indeed and Adam Sandler is still as great!! Love his show!

End of slacking weekend...Ok... Back to work…

2007-10-08T22:49:00.000-07:00

I love u, sweetheart. =)

To nick and jessy , hope that u two have a everlasting marriage.

2007-10-08T22:41:00.000-07:00

Life for the past few weeks just evolved around studying and doing assignment. Managed to take a little breather from studying during the study week and saw me going to NTU representing extremes and yes, not NUS for the friendly game. Meeting up with the club peeps was kind of good, just that for the attendance wise, errr.. still as bad. But nevertheless, given the few no-stamina us, I thought we still managed to put up a good fight against them. And seriously, 4 quarters of C was no joke. And this just tells me that I should take some time off from studying and go for a run. I can’t the stand the UNFIT me!!

Biochem test was up next after the study break. And I’m glad that it is over. The restudying of notes is tormenting and I can already imagine how hard it is to study for the next CA since nucleotide metabolism seemed to be more ‘chim’ than carbo and amino acids metabolism. Clearing of food health and stats written assignment come after the test. But the most pressuring of all is the 40% genetics test on the coming Friday. Hopefully, I can get a decent grade for that. And this is not the end yet. Deadline for the IT project is on the end of Oct and we haven’t start on our WebPages!! So, immediately after the test will see me busy with meeting up xiao tong and xiuyan for our IT project. … Busy.. busy.. busy…

2007-09-08T11:04:00.000-07:00

A quarter of the school term has gone just like that and very soon, the mid term exam will be up next. And before I know, it’s the one month holiday again!! Hahaha.. I have never known I’m that optimistic but I guess I will never be. This one month hasn’t been easy. Going to school for only 3 days per week is enough to kill, especially on Tue and Fri, when we have lecture from 10-6. This is considered tedious for me already. Can’t imagine can drink who has lecture from 10am-10pmon every Fri. Poor thing~

The remaining 4 days are meant for clearing tutorials, assignment and doing some revision. But it seemed insufficient for me. My To-Do-List is never empty. Before I can start deleting some of the tasks, another one is added in. Few days later, another one is added in again. So, the scenario now is as such; every time I on my laptop, the To-Do-List on my desktop will be staring on me. Booo.. My life is sad.. And now, even glycolysis, TCA cycle, glycerolphosphate and malate-aspartate shuttle are invading my dreams.. Madness..

2007-09-03T22:20:00.000-07:00

Watched hairspray with the uni cliques after our mahjong session on Saturday night. It was kind of a last min decision to watch it since we have all planned to return home to study for our Molecular Biology test after having dinner together. It was during dinner when someone suggested (I forgot who) to catch hairspray together. Then after is the returned to Alvin’s house to check the screening time slot. Ok, with the theater settled in PS, the 6 of us took cab down to PS to buy the tickets. That 1 hr before the show starts was a show time for Alvin, apparently. The person who I thought won’t advocate arcade playing turns out to be expert for outrun 2. I have to say I was quite amazed by that. So Alvin Tay is shuai when he plays the piano and cool when he plays outrun 2!! Hahaha. But sorry ah, I still think that the guy who challenged u is more shuai. =P

Heez.. I like Queen Latifah’s powerful voice and Michelle Pfeiffer’s bitchy charm and seduction =)

Oops. And did I mention that because it was a last minute decision to catch the movie after the mj session and my dressing was a bit slack for someone to hang around in PS?

And obviously, those above din answer my prayers when I saw my frens in PS. Boo~

2007-08-23T23:55:00.000-07:00

And the school life resumes… …

It has been near 2 weeks since school has started and it seemed that everything is not going on my way. First is the 4 modules issue in which I would not elaborate and lament about it anymore. Second is the failure to secure a tutorial slot for my Biostatistics. Oh well, what can I do apart from blaming myself for being suay? Haiz.. I guess there is a need for me to go to the temple one day and pray, hoping that there wouldn’t be anymore hiccups for the rest of the semester.

On a lighter note, it’s fun to be in school with all my uni cliques who happened to be my mahjong khakis as well. Although we often meet up for mahjong session during the 3mths break, it’s still nice to see them back in school. The unspoken rule of “who come first will help to chop seats in the LT” continues but it seemed that Alvin is always the first one to reach the lt. And of course, Shawn will come in the last. Haha.. =P and to Shawn: Please remember to sleep early on Monday as you have a lecture at 8am on tue!! And yes, under my supervision, I’ll make sure u go back to your 3 years ago shape. =)
JIAYOU!!

Anyway, I have decided to join back the NUS netball team after much persuasion from Yuhui and Rahayu, and trainings are on every Monday and Thursday. How lucky that is. Both days are my free days. -_-“ As mentioned earlier, I think there is a serious need for me to make a trip down to the temple.

2007-07-19T10:47:00.000-07:00

Another 2 weeks to go and I will leave ASM to resume my study in NUS. Stepping into year 2 this year and the very first wish I hope is that I will still be in the same group as my friends. I hope the fun we had for the last 2 sems will continue and I dun wan to miss any bit of that. Negative thoughts start flooding in when I saw the module allocation mail and yes, the unlucky me has been placed in a different group alone. Although there was another mail saying that there is some errors for that mail, still.. it strikes hard on me. What if the group allocation has been confirmed and the error was just that they sent the mail too early? Oh gosh.. this is idiotic. But I supposed it’s quite pointless of me to start worrying about this and that. Everything hasn’t confirmed, isn’t it? Ok. Great. Settled. That will be the mindset I will continue to have until the verdict is out. So, wish me luck. *pray hard*

Skeptical
Uncertain
Unsecured

These are the feelings I’m having now. Just like a PO, waiting for an acknowledgement.

2007-07-18T17:23:00.000-07:00

Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
Your house tells the world that you ought to be a leader. You are a freedom lover and a strong person. You love your house and family. You are a gifted artist as well. Once you have a problem, you need a friend with you. Your life is always full of changes. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. son.

When it comes to love, you shut yourself off. It's difficult to win your heart because you have decided to keep your feelings deep inside. You see the world as it is, not as you believe it should be.

You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. We also see that you are sensuous, sexual, and privately passionate. You don't think much about yourself.

2007-07-11T10:28:00.000-07:00

NETBALL ISSUE:
Finally we won our first game for the National League. And that makes us 5th in the grouping. And for your information, there are only 6 teams in Div 1. Oh well, at least we are not the last. And as Sharon and I were discussing, the game against the u19s squad was more than just a normal game. It’s the pride at stake (at least that’s what I think). Can’t imagine losing a team which is younger than us. Even though we are not the last in the grouping, we will be playing in div 2 next year and that is IF there is still club EXTREMES.

Anyway, that’s another story about the club again. (Bird, please read) Bok is coming back from his break. -!!!-The leaving for good issue has been a thing of the past. As much as I don’t like him, his return will be good for the team. At least the team and our training schedules will be more organized. It’s really bad to train with only 5 people and a total waste of time to go down all the way to Simei ite just to use their track.

24hr street netball in Suntec 8/8-9/8. Looking forward for that.. =)

WORK ISSUE:
Work has been boring ever since Ell left. At least when he is around, there is someone to talk to whenever I’m feeling bored or when the stress level builds up. But for now, there’s no one besides me. Cant help but feeling lonely at times. People in HR have yet to receive any notification of employing another to replace Ell. I still have another 3 weeks to go before my contract ends. So, there’s a chance that I’ll be alone for the next 3 weeks. Sianz.. Every morning, the thought of skipping work steps in. But I know that I can’t be such an irresponsible person. So I have no choice but to drag my feet to work.
Work=money. And that’s the only motivation I have for work every day.

2007-06-30T00:30:00.000-07:00

Everything will be over soon..
Bear with it..
A couple of weeks is all it takes..
Everything will turn out to be fine..
Moving on is the best option..
Better life awaiting..

2007-06-28T08:05:00.000-07:00

Extremes against Sneaker Force this sat. Everyone says that it is a 50-50 game. Whoever perseveres till the end will be the winner. This might be the first game that Extremes won in this national league and after this victory; we will overcome the U19 team then. This is the plan that we are going. I want to be the one playing hard on court and not sitting down at the sideline, so no matter what, I have to recover fully by this sat. I hope Sharon would be able to recover by then as well.

On a lighter note, it has been a month since I work in ASM. People I know here are helpful and that include the smoker ELLWANGEN (a.k.a ell), mummy RITA, the fierce spider DIN, the kpo SADELY, hairdresser FANNY, Uncle WONG and many more. Because of them I enjoyed my stay here and whatever I have problems with my work, they are always there to assist me. Thanks a lot! Sound as if I’m leaving the company huh? But NO.. I still have another month to go before the contract ends. And that applies to Garry as well. Anyway, Garry and I used to work under the same company. He has just graduated from AJC then and was waiting to serve NS while I was waiting to go AJ. 3 years of not contacting each other and eventually we meet here in ASM.. haha.. So qiao can.. And I think he still look the same. -_-“ Doesn’t NS change a person? Anyway, both of us were under the same job agency, with no admin experience and have the same education level and YET our hourly pay is different. Damn. I’m a cheap labour indeed. =(

Training at Simei today. Sianz.. Hope that the attendance for today will be good. I wonder how many pussy will be down for trg.. I'll update that in my next post..

2007-06-20T17:10:00.000-07:00

Training yesterday was real bad, not because it was tough but I injured myself. Sianz. This is the second time I’m injured for this year since after the bad back strain. This time, I pulled my hemstring while doing the 100m sprint. I tried to ignore the pain and go on with the run. But the pain is just too hard to bear. So I make my way to the sideline slowly and sit down. And the next moment, I realized, I’m not able to straighten my leg. =( the whole thigh muscles became stiff in an instant. Luckily, Jin quan was around then, helping me with the massage and the deep heat rub, slowly my leg is able to straighten but still unable to support myself up. It’s only after I did some stretching then I’m able to walk slowly. Haiz.. I wasted the day just like that, injuring myself when we were only doing the fitness part. I haven’t even touched the ball lo and I have to sit out. This feeling is damn terrible. I promise I’ll rest well and be diligent enough to do stretching whenever I can and ice my injured area. No problem people, I’ll be able to recover in time for sat’s game against Nike Air. Let’s just play hard and enjoy the game!

I realized I enjoy long bus ride at night...

2007-06-19T17:15:00.000-07:00

I realized the more time I have, the less I’ll blog. Just like now, there is a stack of Purchase Order to be completed and yet I have the sudden urge to blog. No wonder the test I have done earlier said that I have a freak in me, urging me to do nonsensical things at time.

Anyway, my auntie colleague tried to tell my personality by just looking at my birth date. Sum of my birth date = 36 (3+8+1+9+8+7).
This is the conclusion she made:
I’m someone with high expectation of myself.
I always believe that I can do many things, regardless of the level of difficulty
I’m will never be satisfied to be just a lowly –rank worker. So, I tend to change job often if I see the opportunity for better prospect.

Bad thing is:
The way I express myself irks people. But they will not tell me straight. (Boo.. that makes them a hypocrite, isn’t it)

I always know that the way I speak tend to irritate people.
Yes, I am straightforward, but I always take that positively. At least, I’m not scheming. I won’t say something that is different from what I’m thinking. Anyway, people who know me well enough should be able to tell whether I’m being serious or I’m just kidding.
Yes, I may be loud at times. But that doesn’t mean that I’m being fierce. This is just the way I speak. So, don’t get offended.
Yes, I may say things that are sarcastic. Errr.. I don’t have much explanation for that. It’s just me. Haha..

2007-06-09T12:29:00.000-07:00

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2007-06-04T17:12:00.000-07:00

To my dear SQUARE:

W E L C O M E H O M E ! !

If you are reading this, don’t forget our hair treatment date!! Whee~

Team 1 National League starts this wed (6/6) against Sneakers Ace. Save your breath if you want to say good luck to me or to anyone in the team. Luck alone is not sufficient to lead us to victory. The game is all about skill and obviously Extremes is not prepared to play in DIV 1. Being the champion team in DIV 2 last year doesn’t allow us to have a foothold in DIV 1. The standard of play between div 1 and 2 is simply too large and by placing us in Div 1 this year, it’s totally suicidal for us. All thanks to NS for the decision. BOO~ BOO~ BOO~ it’s hard to comprehend what they are thinking at times. Simply look at Nike team in Div 2 this year, look at the players especially, and feel free to question NS for their decision on that.

Anyway, mahjong session and the supper after that with Shawn, Alvin and his gf were great. It’s nice to meet up at times and chat. =) Thanks Shawn for the ride home and please remember to bring your driving license next time. Haha.. Uncle need to be reminded at times. And I supposed the ‘woodlands resident’ that he wrote it in his blog was referring to me. Hahaha.. and since I’ll probably need Shawn to drive me home a few more times in the future, I shall compliment that UNCLE SHAWN IS A GOOD DRIVER!! –whistles-

2007-05-26T23:52:00.000-07:00

You Are 40% Normal

While some of your behavior is quite normal...
Other things you do are downright strange
You've got a little of your freak going on
But you mostly keep your weirdness to yourself

How Normal Are You?

How can I ever have a little freak in me when I'm 100% normal in the first place? So, there is only one conclusion that can be drawn and that is the test is totally not reliable!! I'm normal!! and I insist so!

Anyway, the result was out today. Boo~ I have disappointing grades and all of them failed my expectation. I hate it when people make comparison. I have better grades than u doesn't mean that I can't sulk about it and have to make do with it when in the first place it wasn't what I expected. You have your expectation and so do I. So stop complaining and start working hard when the next semester starts if you ever wants to see your caps being pulled up.

I guess it need to work doubly hard for next semester as well. Anyway, I think i have made up my mind and that is I'm going to give it a miss. I promise, I'll sit at the sideline to cheer for you. =)

2007-05-24T15:13:00.000-07:00

Kind of bored now. There are still a couple of quotations that need to be done. But I feel like dozing off anytime. Stupid ell is not here today and I’m left alone. Booo.. Hafiz (an attachment guy) is leaving tomorrow to continue his studies in poly. He was from Northland as well, just like me. He was in the same class as fang lin and the first day when I came to work. The two of us were like, “ eh, u look very familiar.” Haha.. Back in Northland, perhaps we used to walk pass each other without knowing each other, let alone to say hi. But here, we get to know each other, became friends and have our lunch together. There’s a pretty good feeling tho. After he left, I supposed there will be another attachment student here. Obviously, attachment students are being exploited as they are only receiving pathetic pay. Hahaha, but I don’t think I’m fit to say that lah, as I’m a cheap labour as well.

Anyway, there was a fire drill yesterday. Haha.. It has been so long since I participated in a fire drill practice. I doubt there is any of this practice in JC or maybe I have forgotten. There are specific place that we have to queue and attendance has to be taken. Haha.. There are casualties also and the fire fighter came to carry him away. There was a short briefing by the big boss after that. Sianz.. I think we took around 3 min plus to evacuate from the building, with some munching apples as they walked and some busy taking photos. It’s a damn funny sight lah..

Miss the training at ytd’s night also cos I’m still not feeling well. Went to see a doctor on tue and boo.. my temp was 38 degree Celsius. Mahjong session with shawn they al is gone, training has to be missed. -_-“ I’m having a boring life now. Work in the morning and tv date with my home tv at night. I need a life man! And I miss disturbing Mr. negative infinity karma guy. =P

2007-05-22T11:30:00.000-07:00

I’m blogging now, in the mid of my work. Today is the second day of work. Not too bad, I managed to wake up early to catch the company’s bus. Oh, I forgot to say, there is no canteen in the company. Damn sianz.. So I brought bread for lunch. Can you imagine? Bread for lunch leh!! Pathetic life!! Maybe I’ll be skinnier after my contract has ended. =X Anyway, I’m starting to get used to the system already. I can start using the company’s system without looking at my notes already. Great improvement! Yay!!

I thought I’m getting better after taking 2 panadols ytd’s night. Apparently, that’s not the case. I’m getting worse. The flu is getting worse and I think fever is coming next. =(

2007-05-21T22:00:00.000-07:00

Today is my first day at ASM. Waking up at 6.45am is not an easy chore, especially when I’m freaking used to sleeping at 3 plus am and waking up at 12 plus although most of the days, I was woken up by my mum at 9am to look for a job. Went to the wrong company early in the morning.. Haha.. yes, the cuckoo me again and I was late for 10 min for the first day of work. Boo.. Luckily, the person in charge of HR was nice enough to wait for me. I must have positive karma for I have been meeting good people around. Anyway, there are uniform provided even for admin stuffs so that means that people here are not particular about attire. Some of the people are wearing jeans to work, I realized and so I will follow suit tmr.. Hahaha.. I can wake up later in this way since I don't have to bother about dressing up. Yay!!

Anyway, working as a purchasing assistant is not easy. There are so many things that need to be learned.

First: Must learn how to type a Purchasing Order (PO) Form, fax it to the company after that, then call them up to see if they have received the PO and have to ask for acknowledgement after that. Have to do some inbound logistics before filing all those papers up. (Actually, I’m quite worried that I will mess the papers up cos it is really huge slack of papers at one time.)

Second: Make a trip down to the store to check if there are any replacements parts. If there are any, I will have to do the Goods Return Note (GRN) forms then after that call the company to inform them that the replacements parts are ready for collection at the store. All information is to be keyed into the company’s shared system. Anyway, I have to do the trip twice in a day.

Third: Collect invoice from the engineers then check if the price quoted tally with the system. Best is when all tally. And when it does not, then I have to send an e mail to the company to ask for quotation. I was being told, some of the companies will delay the processing so I have to ask them for it everyday. Hahaha.. I will become naggier after that.

Fourth: Have to send self audit form on every Monday to companies and again, have to chase after them for the form.

So basically, these are the things I have learned today. Big headache this time, luckily I jotted notes along the way. So, it is still manageable for now. More works are expected to come in since 2 of the engineers are still away for leave and will be back only on Thursday. Anyway, as mentioned earlier, I have to go down to the store everyday and cos most of the people there are Malays, they have difficulty pronouncing my name and so for convenience sake, they named me Michelle. -_-“ So now, the whole company call me Michelle. Damn! The first thing when I pick up a call, “hello. Is that Michelle?” Sianz..

2007-05-17T23:57:00.000-07:00

I'm free from the nagging from my mum AT LAST cos I have found a job. I can officially watch tv in the living room after dinner without having to hide in the room with my elder brother. All the stressful life at home is gone. yes! =) Anyway, I'm quite surprised that I'm shortlisted for this admin job since I have 0 experience for that plus I know that it's not easy to find a job nowadays and many friends of mine are still jobless. So, I'm considered lucky as to say. Haha, maybe cos I have positive karma, that's why. Hahaha..

I thought ytd was a fulfilling day for me, or at least I'm fully occupied for the whole day rather than slacking at home, doing nothing. Mi and Tong went over to Xiu yan's place in the morning to bake cookies and brownie. Haha.. Some hiccups during the process of baking but the end products are not too bad, I supposed. Although, some of our friends commented that the cornflake cookies are a bit hard, overall the taste wasn't that bad. So the conclusion is the cookies and brownie making is a success! Shall practice more often, ermm.. anyone wants to be my guinea pig? heehee..

After the baking, I went over to Chow House at Tanjong Pagar for interview. It's a sales job, selling some skincare products that will make the skin glow naturally. I was shortlisted immediately and so, undergone some training after that, and I'm supposed to start work the next day. Basic pay is $1000 per month and the commission is $2 per box. $300 cash will be rewarded if there is no lateness during the course of 1 month promotion. Monetary wise is attractive but having to stand for that 9 hours is really not an easy chore. Anyway, everything has been settled so I left for training in Kallang. On my way to KNC, I received a call from Samantha from recruit express saying that I'm shortlisted for the admin work in YISHUN. Attractive location. But of course, the pay for admin work can never be as high as that of sales job. But it's at YISHUN leh.. It's just 2 stops away from my home and working hours is from 8am to 5.30pm. 5 days work week! That means that I would not have to compromise my trainings and games for the job. Great! plus I can still go out shopping, chiong-ing and mahjonging during the weekend. Hahaha.. No way that I'm going to give it a miss man. Yes, I took up the job immediately. So, I called back to the person in charge for the sales job and rejected the job. Kind of irresponsible of me, I know. But since, I have yet to sign the contract with them would mean that I still have the deciding power. Ok, everything settled. Starting work on Mon for the admin work.

First item on the to-buy list: a 4 inch high heels

Anyway, everyone is very off during the training. Most of the passes are bad, the drive is not there and the timing is just off. I'm not excluded, of cos. But I guess, if everyone was to train up on the stamina, everything will be better. So ppl, strive hard during this period ba! -jiayou-

2007-05-15T23:26:00.000-07:00

My colourgenics profile..

You are trying to establish yourself and make an impact despite the fact that everything around you seems to be against you - putting up barriers, but don't be unduly concerned: you have the right ideas and come what may, they will soon be manifested and appreciated.

I'm always concerned about establishing myself in a positive way when people evaluate about me so I thought it doesn't really matter if everything around me is against me or going in my way.

You are lazy - you dream of a peaceful, calm, uncluttered and uncomplicated life. Your ideal would be to share a permanent base with some person or persons who would be able to demonstrate on-going love, peace and security.

I supposed, lazy is too much of a negative word to be used. And dreaming of peaceful, calm, uncluttered and uncomplicated life shouldn't associate one as being lazy. Anyway, calm and uncomplicated life does not sound appealing to me. Instead, I would hope that my life is more unpredictable and full of surprises. Of course, I would want to share a common base with the person so that there wouldn't be any unnecessary clash at any time and the person being able to demonstrate on-going love, peace and security is a must. Who doesn't pin for that?

You honestly believe that your hopes and ideas are realistic, but there seems to be no one around to give you the necessary reassurance and encouragement. You are egocentric. You believe that you are always 'right' - well maybe you are but you have a short fuse and are likely to take offence for the slightest reason.

I do have friends around me to give me the necessary assurance and encouragement but unfortunately, that wasn't what I really wanted. I yearned for praise and compliments, especially at work. Yes, I am egocentric and I thought that is the main characteristic of being a leo. It's true that I always believe that I'm right, but over the years of having to do project works and stuffs, I have learnt to take objections and suggestions for my ideas for I know that this is one of growing processes to master so as to become a leader.

You are feeling trapped by the situation as it stands at this time and what is more, you feel powerless to remedy it. You are stressful, angry and disgruntled. You feel that everything that you try to do to change the situation is thwarted and your hopes and aspirations all seem to be receding into the ever distant future. You have reached the state where you now doubt whether your dreams will ever be achieved and this is not only causing mental stress but heartache. You need to get away from it all - you need to have time to think, to recuperate, to be able to make your own decisions.

Indeed, I have yet to find a solution for the situation I am currently in. But I'm truly aware of my capability and I believed, I would be able to break out of the barriers that I stupidly self create.

You are trying to build up your own position and you resist all external influences. You insist that you are your own person and you will not tolerate any outside interference. Decisive and proud, you are true managerial material.

It's still early to make any conclusion.

2007-05-13T16:17:00.000-07:00

First, I wish all mothers a Happy Mothers’ Day.

Unfortunately, the queen in my home is not in a good mood recently, let alone to celebrate mothers’ day. And when she is not happy, that’s when all the tragic will start happening at home. Minor includes the not-so-tasty meals that she cooked and major includes all the endless nagging. As a lot of people would have known, I really hate it when someone nags at me, just like how the then netball teacher in charge in ajc did. Arrrrgh.. So staying at home lately has been torturous. All blame to my elder brother for not looking for a job actively ever since he has ORD. and I was being implicated as well. I thought I could have a good rest at home after all the mugging during the stressful exam period. But haiz.. it’s equally stressful now. Booo.. Luckily, I have all the mahjong- kakis, my teammates to accompany me these days. So basically, I’m out in late morning and only returning home at 11 plus. She would have slept by then. Phew~

This is the list of activities for the week (v. simplified):
Mon --- Movie watching + tuition at night
Tue --- Job searching + tuition at night
Wed--- Game watching and training at night
Thurs --- Stayed at home b’cos of all the muscle aches
Fri--- Out shopping
Sat—Mahjong-ing
Sun—Mothers’ Day, so have to give her the face and stay at home

Seriously, I think I need to start looking for a job actively as my to-buy list has been out. I need some inputs before the outputs, if not; I think my mum is going to kill me. My room is still not tidied up as well; anymore inputs will get on her nerves and trigger the nags. I don’t wish to die young.

Anyway, my sense of direction is really bad. Singapore is a small country and yet I can lose my way for so many times. How smart! And thanks Chun di for saying that I’m boosting the economy by spending more on taxi-fare. -_-“ I realized I’m losing direction in my life as well. I’ve chosen the path, and as I moved along, the things that happened seemed not to be what I expected. I need a guide somehow, a street directory for my life. I don’t want to be left alone with uncertainty. What I needed most is a confirmation. I supposed, there is a time limit for everything. I'll walk back if it doesn't work.

I read yesterday’s news just now. 2 NSFs were killed when a jet plane crashed into their stores in Taiwan. I was quite taken aback when I saw one of the photos of the 2 decreased and I sms-ed Jasmine immediately to confirm his identity. And yes, he was the councilor back in AJC. He came down in most of our netball games during the A div to support us and occasionally, I’ll just pop over to chat with him. He shouldn’t have died so young. 19 year old is just too young for everything. He has yet to enjoy his life to the fullest and there are so many things left unaccomplished. From what I have collected from Jasmine, the funeral yesterday was very sad, esp. his mum. The pain and sorrow was understandable. She had lost a son just like that. Felt so sorry for them. That really tells us how fragile life is and we should cherish everything and everyone around us.

2007-05-06T23:39:00.000-07:00

Bok has left the club officially. This time for good. Anything that happened to the club now is none of his business. I thought I would be happy that he is gone as all the scoldings and nonsense from him will be gone as well. But apparently, I'm not. As much as I don't like him, the tiny bit of respect for him is always there. He is the one who taught me how to play netball. He is the one who brought me into the netball field. And I will never forget that. But this time round, his action really disgusted me and that tiny bit of respect is gone. He dumped the team when we needed him the most. This time round, the first team is playing in Div 1. DIV 1!! It's going to be a tough league this year. He shouldn't have brought us to win the champion in div 2 last year if he's going to leave just like that. Hah, how responsible and considerate of him. Chun di has taken over the club. She must be feeling damn stress now with so many things bombarding her at the same time. The A division is still ongoing, the ite netball team needs her as the POL-ITE games are coming, extremes trainings needs her and we are sending not 1 but 2 teams for this national league with the second team in div 3. Hope she is coping well. Poor thing. All thanks to some responsible people. I know she is vexed, and I promise I won't give her any problems for the time being. Yes, that means I will stop requesting to go down to the second team. I'll be good and stay in the first team.

Anyway, I went down for aj training after mahjong session in tong's place. I bet the sun really love me a lot. The past few days have been drizzling at around 4 plus. But on friday, knowing that I'll be training outdoor, the sun came out. arrrrgh.. I love the warmth that it provides but at the same time, I hate the impact it left on me. So, I'm having a love-hate relationship with the sun. Booo..

Was quite upset about something that happened during the trainings. I know those words weren't intentional, but I'm still quite bothered by it. I guess I'll just need to train up on my stamina (top priority) and brush up my skill.

2007-05-03T13:10:00.000-07:00

Stats paper at 5 today. The time now is 12.30pm. 3hrs more to go before I leave house for the paper. The sky has turned dark and it's going to rain soon. Hope the rain will stop by the time i leave house so I dont have to bring umbrella. lazy me. Woke up early today at 9 plus, cos I think I turned in early at 1 plus ytd. Consider that as early since I have sleeping at 3+am these days. As you see, I have nothing much to blog and I blogging for the sake of passing time. haha.. no life and so no story to tell.

anyway, yesterday game was disappointing. Could have won but lost. AJC 25-TJC 34 It's really a pity, for I have seen the team played a much better game as compared to ytd. We were at the sideline shouting, until our voice turned hoarse. I thought they will give a good fight and showed me what the team is capable of. I thought it was a game that they wanted to win badly, but their play didnt prove so. I thought ytd was the best time to showcase the result of their tedious and countless trainings over the past 6 or more months, but it wasnt seen. Maybe it's the stress, maybe like what coach has said, it was the psychological side of them that wasnt tuned up. I know that the umpiring was off ytd, and that contributed partly to the lost. But I thought that was expected and they should be prepared for it for some reasons. Frustration is bound to have and I can fully understand that. But I feel that the team was a bit too quiet ytd and more encouragement should be given to one another.

Good thing is, the team never gave up and continue to fight hard throughout the last quarter. Last quarter was the best of the 4 quarter. The defence is there, everyone is working hard, pressing on them. I'm sure they felt the pressure given the miss passes they had consecutively. good job for that! And that is the never-give-up spirit I hope you gals will carry that for the rest of the game. And I do wish to comment that Mel has indeed played well yesterday. The tips, the rebounds were really good. But please huh, aim before u shoot. And if u are reading this: I feel like strangling you when u are taking those shots ytd! haha.. but overall good job lah. Last point to note, I know it's going to be tough ahead, the teams that u gals are going to meet will be stronger than before but I believe so long as u people stay united and fight hard, it's still possible for u gals to make it to the top 4. Don't let the hard work and the countless rounds of run that you all have made go down the drain. Show them, what aj netball team is capable of ba!! -jiayou- always always remember, have faith in yourself and the coach as well.. =)

anyway ah, the aj supporters really cannot make it one. Come down all the way from aj which is at amk to kallang to support their friends and YET they didn't cheer at all. They are doing silent cheers i think. The few of us were like cheering louder than them la.. walau.. No wonder outsiders kept saying that ajc is a mugger school and I agree TOTALLY. And that made me so pissed off and yes, i scolded them. Image was spoilt once again. But it's ok, since I have already left the school.

Booo.. 30 minutes have passed. 2.5 hrs more to rot before I leave the house. OK, I need to get cite up for my paper.. I LOVE STATS!!

2007-04-30T19:00:00.000-07:00

Time seemed to crawl and the long awaiting thurs (3May) seemed to be not nearing.. I have been staying at home these days and this is driving me mad. I'M BORED.. Most of my friends are still in the mids of their exam and of course, i wont go and disturb them. So basically for these few days, my time was spent on video- watching and the slow motion kind of stats revision. SIANZZZ.. I need a life man.. Booo..

Watched Chungking Express 2 days ago and the song California Dreamin' is still stuck in my brain. This song really brings back a lot of memories. I can still remember how Miss Song used to play this song in every music lesson and made us sing. -_-" not an easy song and the first time we sang along with the music was really bad - our key was terribly off and the coordination was real bad. Everyone laughed their heads off after that trial. and since after, our doors were always shut during music lesson. But that was also the first song we performed on stage during teachers' day. haha.. of cos, our performance was a success. =) The 2nd time when we got onto the stage was during speech day. This time was a dance and the song played was YMCA. And I was arranged to stand in the middle of the stage. haha.. come to think about it, that was so embarrassing. But those days were fun lah. =)

I used to have many ECAs as well- I was a tracker. I was a high jumper (I was a three years champ!). I was a netballer and I am still a netballer. I was a librarian. I was a rope skippper. I was a young science club member. And I used to have the aspiration of becoming a botanist when I grow up. Boo~ But I dont harbour that thought anymore. My grades were the lousiest in class but it doesn't matter to me then. Having fun was the most important.

And obviously, I didnt do well for my PSLE with an aggregate score of 210 only and I landed in Northland after that. Continue my netball journey there and that marked the start of my nightmare. Trainings were torturous, Mr Bok was damn fierce, Mrs Chong was controlling hard on us with the rule set: no dating allowed. Some subject teachers used to find fault on the us, saying that we are always using netball as an excuse for the lousy grades and not submitting homeworks on time. And that was when I have decided to work hard, to get good grades so as to shut their mouths. Indeed, within half a year, I was the top few in class. I managed to get into the first class but I made a sacrifice as well. no.8 a number dear to me always. From then, my life began to be occupied with only netball and studies and nth else. That 2 years (sec 3 and 4), I treated it as a form of punishment for myself. People asked me,"why am I always working so hard for my studies? You never seemed to not do well for any tests" But none of them know, I am earning my chance to attend those netball trainings. I have to obtain good grades, show it to my mum and have her consent to attend those trainings. Since then, I know this logic: No matter what I want, I have to use my hard work to earn it. There's no free lunch on earth. And I hate it when people are waiting for other people to spoon feed them. When people think of Northland, the first thing that came to their minds are ah lians and ah bengs. Students from that school are bad. But it is this notorious school, that transformed me. I am proud to say that I was from Northland, where the netball used to be top in North zone. and thanks to all the teachers who have helped me during those 4 years. I really appreciate that. I can imagine the shocks they will have if i tell them all these over the mahjong table. =D

to be continued..

2007-04-30T13:20:00.000-07:00

The always remembered: BSB

2007-04-28T00:47:00.000-07:00

Haven't been doing anything constructive lately. Stats paper on thurs which means that I have another week to study. So I'm taking it quite easy. Watched 3 films within these 3 days: I don't want to sleep alone, Boys don't cry and 盛夏光年. And of all, i think 盛夏光年 left me the greatest impact. I'm still in the mids of pinning down my thoughts for the show, in which I'll post it up soon. People, if u have the time, do watch it. And after the film, do sit down alone and think what was the idea behind the story. You will be surprised to realise the complexity of human nature.

Intending to start mugging for stats tml and if i have the time to spare, I'll continue my movie marathon.. the next film up will be Sweet Home Alabama, a movie recommended by the sociology dept. which indirectly depicts about the stratification system in the society. Spiderman 3 is coming soon as well!! I'm going to catch that as well. And I need to start planning for my awaiting 3 months hols.. one thing for sure, that will be lots of majong sessions!! -yeah-

2007-04-26T13:51:00.000-07:00

I'm into this song recently!! enjoy..
this is the song lyrics:
說我愛你　從男人的心裡　是最難表達誠實的秘密
說你願意　靠在我肩的你　是最難抗拒動人的回應

△你揚起的嘴角給我愛情的動力　彎彎的眼睛藏不住你孩子氣
　(看你泛紅的臉說出模糊的話語　我的心只聽見你心裡的迴音)
　看著我在你眼(睛)裡　眼神是如此肯定
　那就是我一直等待這美麗△

＊我承認我愛上你的美　你的臉和你的眉
　讓我面對自己無法再自戀 OH BABY
　我承認我愛上你的美　你讓全宇宙失眠
　讓我愛到像流星一樣的墜　我才發現＊
　Repeat（△）＊

睡不能睡　腦海都是你畫面　幸福幫我剪接你的笑臉

我承認我愛上你的美　你的美沒有虛偽
讓我愛你愛到忘了我是誰　Oh Baby
因為你我愛上夜的黑　像搭著無人地鐵
開向你為我設的專屬路線終於看見

我承認我愛上你的美

2007-04-23T21:47:00.000-07:00

2 more paper down. and that means I'm done with 3 paper. yeah!! halfway through. 2 more paper to go, one on the wed for BioD and the other on next thurs for stats and then I'm free!! the 3 mths break is waiting for me..

Today was an essay-ful day. written 3 essays for my sociology paper, which has drained much of my energy. Felt quite restless after that and i realised my level of energy is quite low. The soc coursepack was not of use and luckily i din touch it at all. 6 hours break in between after the paper and that stupid bird who claimed that she will call and in the end never. i think she has gotten a new gf there, if not she wouldnt have forgotten about me. hmmmpff.. Mug after that in the lib before going down to Munchie Monkey to look for xiuyan they all for further discussion on marketing. Marketing paper was manageable, just that i was quite shock when i saw the 2 essays qn which were worth 22 marks each. -_-" long essay again. Luckily, the tiredness in me din put me down but instead, i felt more determined to think further and more in depth, for the points that was required in the essays. And i thought i did a pretty good job in the essay part. Hope i will get a satisfied grade for my marketing.

Intensive mugging on bioD starts tml. i think a good rest now but before that, i need my chocolate more. =)

2007-04-22T00:11:00.000-07:00

one paper down.. Econs is over, and ok, the paper is quite manageable except that 60mcqs are indeed taxing. Feel so shag after the paper. And this is the first time I came across a paper that has so many errors that needed clarification. So many disturbance in between. I thought that was pretty disorganized on their part. Shouldnt they check the paper thoroughly? okie, nvm.. it's over. 2 more papers coming on mon: Sociology and Marketing. One is at 9am and the other is at 5pm and that means that I have 6 hours in between!! Sianz.. I cant possibly study for that 6 hours right? Nobody accompany me for lunch as well.. =( omg, i feel so pity for myself suddenly. Any kind soul willing to study with me? haha..

Shit.. wanted to study my marketing after this post but I'm feeling quite high after gulping down half a bottle of ice wine. but.. ICE WINE is so nice.. haha..

2007-04-19T21:10:00.000-07:00

taking this time to blog while sending my file for printing. My elder bro is finally back after a 1 mth trip to Taiwan and he bought the xiao mi jiu( rice wine) for me!! -whee- The taste is very different from the usual volka or the whiskey that we always drink. At first, I don't really like the taste, and i gave the 'yucks' face. Haha.. Then he said I need to drink more to get the essence in it because he has the same reaction as me back in Taiwan when his fren offered him. Ok, so I tried again and this time, I just finished it in one shot. It has the taste of the PRUNES!! Quite weird, cos i dont remember I caught the prunes taste from the first try. So maybe that's the difference between taking one sip at one time, and drinking it in one shot? And in the end, we finished the whole bottle within er.. 10 min. haha..

Anyw, it's good to have my bro back la, at least, he can help in controlling my hopeless younger bro. He's getting from bad to worst. A report book full of 'U's, always returning home after 12am, talking back to my parents, skipping sch as though he owned the sch.. And he's always asking my parents for money in which I have no idea where he spends the money. and the worst thing is, he smokes. Damn. i hate smokers. My dad is on the verge on throwing him out of the house. He's always the cause of unhappiness at home. Haiz.. I dunnno, I just feel tired at times with the quarrel outside when I'm studying in my room. I just want to concentrate on my studies for this one wk.

ok, enough of lamenting, time to get back to sch. Econs paper this sat. jiayou ba!!

2007-04-15T16:50:00.000-07:00

Taking a break now from all the mugging.. Just had tau huey, and somehow it never fails to satisfy me. =)I love tau huey!! Booo.. the weather is making me sleepy and all the rain spoil my run. I guess my goal wont be reached in a wk time. Forget it. I should be concentrating on my studies now. Every day's schedule will be mugging mugging and mugging.. How boring =/ And i wonder how many brain cells of mine will be died during this exam period.

Study progress of the different modules(rating from 1-10):
1) Principles of economics --- 8
2) Principles of marketing --- 6
3) Biodiversity --- 0
4) Sociology(s/u) -- 3
5) Biostatistics --- 0

Obviously the unequal distribution of revision.
Stats will be on the 3may and since i have 8 days to revise after my bioD paper, it's ok for me to abandon it for the moment of time.
Sociology, a module that i have s/u, so the grade wont reflect on my cap. half-hearted will be sufficient.
BioD.. errr.. ok, I'll start tomorrow.
Economics.. the paper is on this coming sat so i have no choice but to start early on this. and special thanks to my T.A. Li Yang for helping a lot in the revision. =)
Marketing.. i never knew that reading the textbook can be so boring. but somehow, i have to squeeze all the info into my brain.

Ok.. enough of blogging.. I need to get back to mugging.. =/

2007-04-09T17:33:00.000-07:00

It was a bad start for me today. I woke up late at 9.15 when I have my sociology tutorial at 10. Maybe it's due to my wrong sleeping posture, one side of my ears seemed to be blocked.. arrrrgh.. Anyway, somehow I managed to rush out of the house in 5 min time and thinking back, I was quite impressed by that. It was around 1010 when I reached the campus. I followed the direction given by my friend to the tutorial room and as I pushed open the door, what I saw was all the unfamiliar faces looking at me. Damn. I've got the wrong venue for my class. I double check the room no. with what I have written on the piece of paper. SAME.. AS1 0210. So now, 2 possibilities left: 1.I copied the wrong tut room no. 2. There is no tut today. 10.15 now. I quickly called Mei Chee to help me check my mail for the class venue and another 5 min passed while waiting for her com to start up. I got a real shock when the just-woke-up her told me it's the 16 April today cos that would mean that the tut class that I was rushing had passed. Ok, mail checked and indeed, i copied the wrong venue. It should be AS1 0301 and not AS1 0210. blur me. Rushed to the class and it was 1030 when I finally reached. 6 people in the class including me and that means active participation needed for the class. I was quickly assigned to a group for some politics discussion. A topic of my weakest. I was being pushed to present it and somehow, I managed to crap through using the limited amt of knowledge back in my brain. With my ear blocked, it's really terrible, cos i cant seem to hear my voice and gauge the projection of voice. But i guess, my volume was still ok after seeing some nods by the others.

Went back to science for the stats lecture after the tutorial class. And my ear was still blocked. arrrrgh.. and that Thomas kept buzzing beside me which further adds on to my irritation. Anyway, to everyone.. sorry for the 'huh's during our conversation. I don't mean to be rude. It's just that I cant hear you and my voice as well, that's y the soft spoken me today.

Took the train back after all my classes have ended. and this weird ah pek kept smiling at me. Dunnno y.. Damn irritated by that. But luckily he alighted at the Choa Chu Kang and I finally can get a peaceful rest in train.

Anyway, another weird thing just now. I went to the S.A.M machine to purchase some postage labels. I touched the screen for 2 postage labels and just when I was about to insert the coins( for the payment), the machine dispensed 6 25cents labels !!! -shocked- I looked around for help but apparently there was no one around. Ok, after saying thanks(and i really said that lo), I took those labels and left the place.

oh man, I really have no idea what's happening to me today. Being at home now, in a familiar environment made me feel much more safer and I'm hoping that today will just end fast.

2007-04-08T18:31:00.000-07:00

Went to Jin Quan's 21st birthday party yesterday. She is my senior back in Northland. I remembered the days( I was in C div and she was in the B div) when we were training in Northland, under Mr Bok. Those torturous trainings under him were unforgettable. She has always been my goal in netball, to achieve her standard of play although there wasn't much relation between her playing position and mine. She was a C and I was a GA THEN. And people always relate us together because they claimed that our playing style look alike. But till now, seriously i don't see any similarity at all and we don't look alike. err.. Maybe we were equally fierce and both of us are holding the captain-ship then. And as for now, both of us are playing for the same club and under the SAME THEN-NORTHLAND coach. haha.. kind of sad life, ya. Her playing position hasn't changed but mine has. So, we are both the mid-field attackers. I have to admit, when i started out( that was like 3 years ago) playing with her in the same team in the same line-up was kind of stressful. The mentality that she was the senior and I was the junior persist and her attitude on court is something that one need to get used as well. But things got a lot better after we have been playing together for many of the games. And now, there is no such invisible barrier between the two of us anymore. We joke around, make a fool out of ourselves off-court and we understand the emotions and attitudes of each other on court. We are now the strongest combination for mid fielder in the team.. haha.. And since I've returned back to the team, let's just train hard for the coming National League!! -cheers-

Anyway, yesterday birthday party was like a gathering for me as well since many of the ex-northlanders turned up. Jin Quan is now 21 and I'm just 1 yr younger than her and this means that my turn for my age to start with a No. 2 is coming soon as well!! AHHHH!! But.. but.. but.. this will only mean that a new chapter of my life is going to begin and NTH ELSE.

2007-04-04T23:32:00.000-07:00

1st EXTREMES training ytd after a long period of break. Killer trg for everyone i would say since everyone hasnt been trg for the past few mths. An unexpected turn up of THE COACH made me feel that i have been duped.. But oh well since i have decided to return to the competitive field, I will keep my morale high and endure any tougher trainings ahead. and that includes the nonsense from HIM that may pop out anytime..

An update about the things we did for the trg ytd, we ran a total of 7 rounds( and yes, i really hate it when the track is next to the netball court- more rounds will be expected for future trgs), did 10 hard sprints across the netball court, countless times of push ups and the never -ending full court drills, and 60+ strong shoulder passes.. So to summarize, we did a lot of runs and passes.. and I dunnno why I am back as a shooter when i have alr been converted to a mid fielder. Hate the feeling of being neither here nor there..

journey back home took me 45 min which further adds on to my tiredness, causing me to make a small embarrassment.. finally my day ended with a cup of freshly squeezed orange juice.. =)

2007-03-31T21:28:00.000-07:00

my poor bruised finger.. =(

30hr street netball is here again this june.. going to have fun again.. haha..
Extremes trg next tue.. da jia JIA YOU ba!! =)

2007-03-28T16:44:00.000-07:00

You Are 8: The Challenger

You're brave, impulsive, and gutsy - loving challenges.

You act first and think later. And you're not afraid to speak up.

You are confident, so much so that you can be a bit bossy at times.

Whether people like it or not, you always stand up for yourself.

What Number Are You?

People who knows me well, will know that i'm a no. 8 fan.. for no reason though, i just have a liking for this no. since errr.. secondary sch?? maybe at first, i was influenced by someone then. But i still like it now.. So after all, i am NUMBER 8. haha..
-bored-

2007-03-28T00:03:00.000-07:00

Whatever you can do or dream you can, begin it.
Boldness has genius, power, and magic
-Goethe-

Just something random.. Some words of encouragement for myself. Time to train up my stamina which is in a very bad status now.. No more excuse for me now, since i have recovered from my back muscle strain.. Hope my knee is not the next to give me problem..

I have finally come to an conclusion after few days of thoughts..
I had enough rest..
I should stop avoiding the truth in front of me..
I need to work hard in order to become stronger and skillful..
I am part of the team..
I am one of the senior player..
The team needs me now..
So i should stop being selfish..
And return to the team!
irregardless of whether is for them or me..
Let's all just work hard together.. I'll pick up from where i left..

Stamina training starts tml.. -jiayou-

& Bird, sometimes i do hope u are still in S'pore, at least i will have someone to talk to.. hope u are doing fine there.. =)

2007-03-25T23:58:00.000-07:00

so i conclude.. the one i fear most is none other than the DENTIST. i remembered when i was in pri school, whenever there was this young lady coming into the class with a clip board, i knew that it was the dental call again.. i would then start praying that the person called out will not be me.. the dentist though is not-the-fierce-and-scary kind, the thoughts of tooth extraction and other dental treatment( esp the use of the hook check if there is anything between the tooth) put me into the scary mode. Since then, i have never and yes NEVER like to visit the dentist..

But.. i went to see the dentist today cos of tooth decay in the 2 front tooth. This time round, it lefts me with no choice cos it will directly affect my image.. haha.. laugh by all means ba.. it took me great courage to make up this decision since i have to overcome the fear in me first. i was freaking nervous while waiting for my turn.. the dental process was indeed painful and i swear upon that time that i DUN WAN to undergo this again.. I promise i will take good care of my tooth from now on( though i wont give up on my fav choc).. i will have good brushing habit, i will rmb to floss my teeth every now then now.. i will.. ...to be continued.. =)

school works are piling up as well. final examinations are coming in one month time. and after that, i'll be free for 3 months.. 3 months full of netball.. National league coming up.. and yes.. I'm returning to the team and this time, I'm giving myself the ever last chance to prove my worth on court.. -jiayou-

2007-03-24T13:18:00.000-07:00

so in the end.. i missed today's trg cum friendly at aj again.. i failed my promise last wk.. sorry chun di.. but i know you wont blame me one.. haha...

Went majong-ing with Shawn, Alvin and his gf (Shawn, her name is Christine, not Candy) ytd at Alvin's house. Really had a great fun there cos of the nonsense that Shawn has created. and PLEASE, Shawn, dont behave like this in the public. i PROMISE, i would ignore u and disregard u as my fren. haha.. and also, i dun wan to sit at your xia jiao ANYMORE.. damn it.. how can i be so suay to pick the 'bei feng' for 3 consecutive rounds and you were the 'xi feng'. but still.. without depending much on you.. i stil won after 7 hrs of battle.. wahahahaha.. -proud-

and thanks Shawn for the ride home. i noe i'm a street idiot for not recognising the way home. haha.. and who said that a person who can excel academically cannot have a poor sense of directions.. bleah.. anyw, i promise, i will start recognising the way back from whatever expressways.. though i think i will take years to master that.. and as i said, i have the life to be chauffeured around.. =)